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Today on reasons I should delete twitter: AFABs continuing to refuse to listen to AMABs about what is or isn't transmisogynistic

RAAAAGHGHHHH..... Michael myers!

I feel the need to type this for a few of my friends. There are a few of you I haven't been talking to much. One of you is really busy yourself.  My semi-aloof behavior, online and in person is not because of any of you.  I am insanely busy. I've been working on commissions every day and on top of having work to be done I've actually started to make some changes in my life.  The last eight months I've had difficulty wanting to be around my horse. I just have been tired and sick, or it's been cold out. It's warm now and I have begun to climb back out of a shell I found myself in. I was sick. I got diagnosed with a disease. It stopped me in my tracks. I emotionally freaked out. For weeks after that I sunk into a horrible depression. My anxiety got much worse. It's still bad. It's getting better, but it's not great.  And through all of this I've had this faint guilt because my horse just hangs out outside alone and I haven't hardly done a thing with him.  I've started working with him again. I finally feel like myself again with him. That's one big change I've made. 2-3 hours well spent I think. He seems much happier too. :)  I've been spending some hours every day with my mom, watching Doctor Who, or just talking to her. That's much of my free time.  Aside from that, there are many other changes I'm making. They are mostly small things. But the events of the last six months have changed me, to the core. I feel like I'm becoming a different person, a better person.  I beg you to be patient with me. Please remember that I am for the most part, an introvert. I have moments where I want nothing more than to be around people and be social. But I have phases where I need more alone time. I need to think and just be. I am currently finding being social very very difficult.  However, if you need me, I am just a message away. I really am. I check my social media regularly, usually multiple times a day. I work at my desk here. I'm here.  That goes for anyone here, on tumblr. If you need to talk to somebody, my message box is open. :)  I love you all. You know who you are, a few of you. You all know. I want you to know that I think about each of you every single day, you're in my prayers every single day. I love you!