There's something wrong with you.
(Or alternatively: Evu's terrible, horrible day of december 15th)
This wasn’t the first time evi4 died from a simple push-punch. You’ve heard that they do that quite often.
This wasn’t the first time evi4 died right in front of you either. Blue killed them the other day by accident when you were just hanging around spawn.
Accident.
Yeah, that’s probably the best word to describe a lot of evi’s deaths. This one was an accident too. You just tried to push them away from Mari, before anything bad happened, when suddenly the void creature in front of you turned into a small explosion of different items that were clogging their inventory.
You froze as the weird tingling from your left paw crawled up your arm, straight to your chest and quickly spread to the rest of your body. You’ve kind of got used to consuming hearts, but this was different - like an ice-cold lightning followed by a pleasant warm wave.
This was the first time you’ve killed someone in this world.
This was the first time you’ve understood why anyone would enjoy killing.
In every other world you’ve been to, the most you could get out of a fight was just pure satisfaction from a win and maybe some material goods your opponent had. It wasn't really your thing though, you always preferred doing anything else but fighting.
This was completely different. There was something about that experience that woke up a feeling hidden deep down in you. A craving for more. More blood. More kills. More hearts. More of whatever made you feel this kind of pleasure.
But-
That was wrong.. That's not who you were. You weren’t ever supposed to be here in the first place, so how- why-
You gasped desperately for air when someone brushed against you while picking up items laying all around the ground.
You shook your head and looked around nervously - not sure how long you've been standing there and just realising you were holding your breath this whole time.
Thankfully it must've been just a couple seconds, everyone seemed to be in close enough proximity to where they've been standing before, besides the ones collecting evi’s belonging.
Everyone was acting as if nothing happened, gameshow participants were just coming back from the short discussion break, and everything was about to continue according to plan.
You tried to pretend everything was fine too. It’s normal for evi to die accidentally.
It’s normal to kill on this server.
It’s normal for everyone else here so you shouldn't be overthinking this too much either.
Everything was normal. Everything was fine.
Deep breaths. You were fine.
You tried to focus on the questions again, but you wouldn't guess the answers even if you tried. The constant ringing and buzzing and echoing of thoughts in your head wasn't making it any easier.
The best you could do now was pushing it all behind a mental door and wait until you’re alone again.
Or maybe you should just leave early.
You started weighing the pros and cons, thinking of a good excuse that wouldn't cause anyone to question you too much, when new notification showed up in chat.
BlueTheSquirrel joined the world.
A distant light in pitch-black night.
You tried to hide your smile when looking down at the communicator, but even just a chance of seeing Blue made your heart a little lighter. Now you had a reason to stay longer. This mesa was quite far, but with nether roof travel it shouldn't take them long to get here, maybe a couple minutes. Just in time for final questions.
Three. Five. Seven. Ten. Ten minutes.
You kept looking at the clock in the corner of the screen, slowly losing hope they were even planning to come here. You wouldn't blame them, it was already late.
While Void was sharing the final scores, you glanced towards the nearby portal one more time. You had to squint eyes to recognise a crouching figure on the hill, but it was just Ace - what was she even looking for there?
You sighed quietly and opened your communicator. You hesitated for a second - maybe they were busy and you shouldn't bother them now - but sending a simple “hi” ultimately wouldn't hurt. Worst case scenario they’re just gonna ignore it.
The second you pressed enter, your ears were hit with high-pitched whistle of arrows and ten new death notifications covered your whole screen.
You felt a warm drizzle from the side, followed by strong metallic smell.
In the corner of your eye you saw piles of items in the midst of quickly coming down red mist, but you didn’t even think twice before you jumped off the tribunes. You had to get away from here, from everyone, as far away as possible.
You ran.
You ran, even when you couldn't feel your legs anymore.
You ran, even when you couldn't catch a breath anymore.
You ran until you hit an ocean shore.
You might've stopped there, but your heart was still racing, as if it could physically jump out through your throat and continue the run.
You sat down- fell down, as your legs finally gave up, and pulled your knees up to your chin.
Why.
Why did They do that.
No, that wasn't really important right now, and you could probably easily guess the answer.
Same reason as for most of the murders here. Except no one has done it on such a big scale before, but it was bound to happen.
There was other question at the back of your mind, but you didn't like it.
You looked down at your paws, still shaking - one was stained with bits of evi4’s weird void remnants, the other with everyone's blood.
How did it feel like?
You grimaced at this thought and buried your head deeper behind your legs. It was impossible to deny that you liked how you felt after The Thing, but it still felt wrong.
You didn't feel guilty or unjustified. You were even gonna give evi basically everything back except for the heart. You didn't feel bad at all, but still…
You fell on your back and looked up at the night sky. You could clearly see all stars from here.
There was something wrong with this world.
There was something wrong with you.
But it was already too late to leave. You had to figure out how to adapt and deal with all of this.
