#every time!

yeah so im super fucked up still and the clinics still havent called me. but we found a specialized clinic while i wait for them to do so.

the "help me im screaming" nerve pain js mostly dampened now, but the amount of Pregabalin required to make this happen has stunted my ability to do things and communicate. i was doin sorta better, and then Winter came. and it hurted me. :( I wont go into the gory details of my pain and suffering, but Im dropping and breaking things due to the side fx and it's really disheartening.

however i finished intake at a new clinic and i have a new specialized team that intends to address the fuckin. web. of neurological diagnoses that are fuckin my ass up, and we may actually find some answers.

Which is excellent!

but it's gonna take even more time and it sux. not much more to it than that. it's taking forever and it hurts and it sux.

but some things are going well for my family and that's nice, and i hope to elaborate more once my superstitions wear off. im also getting so fucking frustrated about the state of the internet that im getting ready to start an actual penpal list. a surprising number of you are invited, albeit it might take time before i can get a new PO box. I dont know if it will fix me, but im sure it will help.

lol

until then,

i love u, take good care, drink water, make good choices, memento mori, do a stretch, tell someone you love you love them, allow yourself to be cringe, and i'll see u soon