Guys, it has literally been a whole year that I've gotten to love this sexy, amazing, patient (yall literally have no idea how much), loving God. He has brought so much joy back into my life. I am probably the hardest person to deal with, much less love. This man right here, does it so well. He loves me even in frustration with me, in times when I am so undeserving. He gives me all that I want, time, affection, and just being in his presence. This year was tough (mainly because of me) but it was also super rewarding. When he is around me, it's like my whole world falls into its perfect place. My mind is able to stop going a million miles a minute, and I find myself at home. Sometimes, I struggle with saying things like that about him because I also don't want him to feel like he has this enormous responsibility to make sure I'm happy. I am in control of my emotions and feelings and thoughts....he simply (well not really so simply) makes it possible for me to be able to do that. He is 7 years younger than me, and has taught me more in this year, than I've probably learned in my 35 years. I have had the honor of also teaching him a few things...mainly about life on a farm and how that all works lol, or attempting to teach him how to read music. We've laughed, cried, fussed, fought to a point where I just knew it would be over. Through all of the hard, there has also been such an amazing thing. I tell him I love him all the time. (to a point where I think he tunes me out lol) I just never want to go a moment without him knowing how much he means to me and how utterly in love with him I am. The universe always has a place for you, and as long as he will have me, I will call him home. I can't wait for many more years and anniversaries and just time with the only man who has ever captured not only my dumb heart, but reached inside and captured my soul. I love you Cris! I hope that this year has brought you more joy than sadness and I hope to be able to love you until my time is up. XOXO
