#evanbird

Daxie blinks owlishly, her long ears flopping back and forth.  She shifts her weight, then taps the tips of her fingers together.  “Aren’t… aren’t the Lowborn the ones that aren’t in power?  I mean, they’re just… you know… people.  At the same time, confronting the Black Hoods might be pretty dangerous—how much are you willing to risk by confronting them?”

Daxie blinks owlishly, then furrows her brow.  “Not to be cliche, but just the way I want to be treated.  People who are my friends, I want to help them get everything they need.  I want them to feel wanted, I want them to be cared for, fed, warm.  I want them to have a shoulder to cry on.”

Daxie

- I keep a box of toys under my papasan for the sake of spontaneity and because I am too small for some of my lovers.

- I often smoke or ingest mild drugs before sleeping to lessen the chance of nightmares.

- Every year, I repeat the names of those under my care I know were lost in the Ravaging.

- I fantasize about Tohr often, and not just sexually.  He makes my chest hurt.

- I get aroused while getting piercings; I think it’s something about the thrill and that split-second of pain.

- I am terrified of being asked to reconnect to the Weave or becoming a Matria again.

- Dancing is a way of distraction, as well as a source of calm.

- I love spending time around Mordesh because they make me feel at home, like I’m not the only broken person in the universe.

- I enjoy sex because it feels like validation I cannot get elsewhere, and it allows me to be close to people—and to forget if only briefly that I’m worth something to someone.

- I want to hurt people for what they have done to others, and the frightening thing is I think I would enjoy it.

Valkurius

- Although I do not mind scars on my body, I am particular about there being no marks on my face.

- Trimming my beard and shaving any stubble are a morning ritual.  No one else has done these things for me since I was on Cassus—at least not while I have been physically capable and/or unrestrained.

- I will never call myself an Exile, and I will never stop calling myself a Cassian.  You cannot take my history from me.

- While staying with the Dominion would benefit them, there is a small part of me that hopes to see my children with the Exiles.

- Monthly, I re-evaluate what causes me fear.  When I stop fearing everything, I know my time is near.

- I have never felt love in the romantic sense.  I do not understand it, and I am honestly frightened of feeling it—and someone feeling it for me.

- The Mordesh are a favorite among the Exiles because they are as close I will get to the culture and education of Cassians without interacting with Cassians.

- One of the things I miss most about Cassus is the availability of fine, fresh loose leaf teas.

- There are times I wake from sharp dreams and believe for just a few moments that I am still a Dominion citizen.

- There are very few I would dare to call friends, although I never would say so openly for fear of endangering them.

Avestrus

- I am constantly in study of new journals and writings about the Void and Void manipulation.

- I am frightened of the idea of reverting to who I was before.

- I go through constant retouching of my subsurface runic tattooing in order to keep myself at my top of Void manipulation.

- I take immeasurable pleasure in watching the born Highborn crumble in their ineptitude, especially before my superiority.

- I take pains to insure time and time again that all those who had a hand in my change are now dead.

- I take great pleasure in causing others pain. This pleasure is not only sexually, although there are times the lines are crossed.

- The person who knows me best—and in a way not at all—is the very one I pay to play bodyguard and co-conspirator.

- I have posed as a member of COGs in order to secretly cause mayhem and gain the trust of those who might otherwise be distrustful.

- I enjoy intimacy in the baths as much, if not more than, in the bedroom.

ooc;

I want to make Perseus sound like less of a Dominion nerd, but Perseus nearly worships the Emperor. He finds the idea of the Dominion being correct in everything they say very comforting on a visceral level, because he likes having the idea of something or someone to believe in - hence his strict adherence to the Church and Dominion doctrine in general. Perseus will defend the Emperor whenever someone tries to speak out against the Emperor, because he sees the Emperor as a quasi-god. Also, the war loving part of Perseus enjoys the idea of how Emperor Myrcalus violently took the throne of the Empire from someone less worthy.

ooc;

Such a good question. It’s a tough one, to be honest, because Fredrick’s trusting nature is such a large part of him that it’s difficult to talk about without going on really long rants. (Case in point - this ask response was originally 400 words longer before I cut it down for length and over-sharing!) But I’m really happy for the opportunity to talk about it!

At the root of Fredrick’s trusting nature is that the man wants to believe that people won’t go out of their way to deceive him intentionally. He wants to believe that as long as he treats people with kindness and respect, they’ll do the same to him in return.  Some part of Fredrick doesn’t want to believe that anyone could be entirely bad - or even mostly bad.

Fredrick does try his best to be discerning when he knows someone is less than scrupulous.  In his own mind, Fredrick will sincerely believe that he’s judged the other person accurately and found them trustworthy. Yet Fredrick is often unwilling to believe his instincts in these situations, because he would much rather believe that the other person is being honest. And so Fredrick tries to be more cautious and discerning all of the time, but he usually fails at identifying when he’s being deceived.