#euuuugh

She just can't get over the fact that I am afraid of her, and it's because of her actions and not some outside force that "corrupting" me

I signed up to be a subject for this experiment thing for a psych class. I guess the point of it was that personal space is subjective, but everyone seems to find an arms length the most comfortable because when you were a kid everyone led you by the hands and it keeps you out of fighting distance. I dunno, that’s just what I gathered. But all I knew going in was that it’s for a psych class. I go in and they put us in groups. 3 Male/Male pairs, 3 Female/Female pairs, and 3 Male/Female pairs. I’m placed in a Male/Male pair. It’s a guy twice my size in every aspect. They have us stand toe to toe with each other for five minutes while the students observe, then do the same at various further distances. Awkward, but whatever. Then, they go over their analysis with us still there. When they get to my group they say that I seemed like the most uncomfortable person in the room by far. Then they discussed why that might be in relation to the psyche. Whatever, that’s fine all is well. And then they started describing me as the homosexual male????? I did not share that with them. It is an assumption they ran with, and did not drop for the rest of the discussion. And for the last part we had to either confirm or deny their theories. Which means I had to get up in front of a room full of people my age that I did not know and go “Yeah. I was deeply uncomfortable standing 3 inches away from a guy twice my size. Yes it’s likely because I’m gay.” Is that not… morally wrong to do? I have never felt more wildly uncomfortable in my entire life. I really don’t think I needed to be there for the analysis portion. I couldn’t even be upset about it because it was pertinent to the experiment and examining social behaviors between groups. Like my sexuality absolutely played a role, they were right. I just really don’t think I needed to be present while they discussed it.