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April bullet journal week 1 & 2

So I started thinking I should do youtube again so I did a thing :). I know its July but I was feeling a little inspired and these are things that aren’t just study essentials but things I use everyday. Enjoy ^.^

Hey guys, its Bianca. I know lately I haven't been posting study notes or original content because honestly speaking I've been really down lately. I want to clear things up. Don't get me wrong I love being a studyblr, I love learning and education but I'm so fucking scared of going back to school. I'm about to enter my final year which means state exams, college hunting, graduating and everything is just moving so FAST. I'm going to be 18 next year and this pressure of growing up and deciding my future is really taking a toll on my overall health. I find myself awake at 4 or 5 am wondering if I can really pull this off. It doesn't help that I suffer from anxiety and I would be lying if I said I wasn't having an anxiety attack almost daily. I have a lot of fears. I'm afraid of letting my parents down, my teachers and myself down. I am not the best student. I get average grades. I fail maths almost every class test. No amount of aesthetically pleasing notes are going to change that. I feel like I'm lying on my stuyblr and putting this "front" like everything's okay. So I've decided to be more honest not only to myself but for everyone who follows me on tumblr. Being a student is always gonna be pretty; sure we celebrate the good grades but we need to acknowledge the ugly ones too.

Allow yourself to embrace nature. Let the sounds of crashing waves drown your heavy heart. Let the sounds of nature’s destruction ring in your ears. Be in the moment

hii bianca! that’s so cool and thank you for the welcome!! :-)

so I’ve been saving up for a while on something I want/deserve as a reward for all my months of hard work. I really can’t decide between getting Doc Martins or getting a Kanken. Which one should I go for and if I were to get a Kanken, what colour should it be?

07.07.16// Early morning study today with Thermochemistry. Yellow is such a happy colour. I'm thinking about putting up another blog post or maybe even film a Youtube vid?? If you guys have suggestions feel free to ask me.

I decided to put 100 days of productivity on hold until the school year starts. Sorry for the lack of photos recently, the Tumblr app on my phone keeps glitching. Fix this Tumblr.