#erza-requips

(Moved rp: @kuroganeslayer)

Well at least I’m not the only one drinking now, drinking alone is no fun at all…

Erza thought to herself while drinking some more alcohol until she heard Gajeel mention a certain drunken incident that occured a while ago and the womans face turned bright red and she snapped at the iron slayer.

“I WALKED HOME BUTT NAKED AND SOMEHOW I RAN INTO JELLAL! SO DON’T YOU PLAY VICTIM GAJEEL! BESIDES WERE YOU EVEN DRUNK? YOU COULD HAVE SAID NO AND WALKED AWAY! SO HUSH!”

Obviously her current drunken state doesn’t give Erza memories of that night to its fullest as to most people a drunk Erza was an even scarier version than normal sober Erza.

Gajeel would of thought that Erza was still in her drunken state, but somehow she was still sober to some capacity. Upon hearing her speak about the outburst of Jellal seeing Erza’s walk home naked caused him to spit out the liquid that he was drinking, but the thing that really angered him greatly when she dared mentioned his name even more. She was trying to get back at him and he knew it, but he mistakenly had underestimated her memories and mind set of previous things. 

Better than everyone getting pregnant again, right?

This is so awesome omg! :D

@erza-requips

Erza,

There are many things I would delight in conveying to you, though it seems my time is limited. You know of my travels, of their dangerous nature, and I know of yours. It has never been a secret, the possibility of injury or fatality on the battlefield. It is not something we’ve ignored or kept hushed, it was simply not something which we felt needed to be addressed.

Now, however, I am finding it hard to ignore. My enemies are many, and they are powerful. Incredibly so, to the point where I have narrowly escaped fatal blows on more than one occasion. That is my reason for writing to you; I am uncertain of my own future. Outnumbered, evenly classed—many things are possible at this point. 

I do not mean to seem as though I’ve given in before my time. The waters are murky, and they are rising. They’ve reached my chin at an alarming rate and something tells me that my time is coming to its close. If such is the case, I would much rather have been safe than sorry. I’m sure you understand?

Many things between us have been left open ended---feelings, thoughts, desires. Because of this, if I have met my end, I am hoping that I can at least provide you closure. I will bare my soul to you, even if not in your physical presence. 

I have loved you, even without right to do so. I know it is selfish and unwarranted, the feelings I harbor for you. I know I am undeserving, for I have hurt you in unspeakable ways. My sins are many, and they can never be cleansed. I am the face of your nightmares, how dare I feel such a way for you? 

But I have, no matter the pain that it brings me nor the stress it puts upon our alliance. I have attempted distance; fate seems to close said gap more often than not. No matter the amount of apologies I deliver, I cannot mend what has been broken, and I have accepted that. I will not ask for forgiveness.

I love you, and I respect you deeply. I suppose there are parts of me which have always longed for your grace and affection---parts of me which are drowned out by the guilt and the pain, and the truth. I also admire your guild, the home you’ve found yourself in. I know they will continue to take good care for you, as you will for them. I have faith in your strength.

I will ask you not to mourn for me---you have cried far too many tears on account of me. My passing is with peace; justice will be wrought upon me, should I meet that fate. Though I will ask you to see it through that Meredy is taken into good hands, and surrounded by the care and the love that she deserves. She has already lost so much, I worry for her.

I am sorry for the mess I may leave untended, should I leave at all. I only wish I could have been something more in this life. Goodbye for now, Erza Scarlet. We may meet again.