#errghhh

WHAT WAS YOUR: Last beverage: Coffee. At night. Before bedtime. 8'D... Last phone call: uhh.... my dad! Last text message: My IRLfriend youmaycallmeby Last song you listened to: Niflheim's Theme from Ragnarok - Christmas in the 13th month Last time you cried: Uhhh. When my bro started saying pretty awful stuff about my mom. I was kind of depressed because of some issues at that time and I had even less of a handle on my empathy as usual, so the tears just started to pour out of my eyes at that point. My bro thinks it's because he was getting through to me, but this has happened to me before when he was sharing his ugly ideas about my dad once, too. I just get really sad that he would think that way about our own parents, okay. They deserve better, but mainly I feel sad for my brother, for multiple reasons. It's sad that he has come to this point because of his past mistakes and fragile pride, where his relationship with them will never be as it should be because he is trapped by these views, this way of thinking. It's really, unendingly sad that he cannot believe in the people who love him the most. (Of course, I couldn't tell him that because he'd react badly, plus he and my dad were kind of cornering me into talking about other things at the time.) tl;dr I lose my composure too easily   when I'm depressed and regardless of the reasons why it happened or my undesirable tearducts, I'm actually kind of irritated at my dad and brother confronting me in a public place about these things, which allowed it to happen. In public. The prior sads are a mere background noise to the tooth-gnashing shame and anger I feel when thinking back about that moment 8'D Never again. 

HAVE YOU EVER: Dated someone twice: Uhhh. I... guess...? Since you can't really... call several days of almost uninterrupted company a single date? There are plenty of things in there can could be counted as... separate dates?! I think?! Been cheated on: Pretty sure I haven't! Who could possibly cheat on this hunk? B'D  Kissed someone and regretted it: Yyyyeeeaaaahhhh... *cough* elementaryschool *cough* doingwhatyouseeontv *cough hack* Lost someone special: Yeap.  Been depressed: I'd say at the core I'm a happy person and I always enjoy life a lot, but I've had times where no matter how bright the world shined, I was trapped within a fog of my own suffering because I just care too much about certain things and certain people. But I have always managed to fight my way out back into careless joviality. Except once, where I'd say that someone else was pretty much 100% responsible for lifting the pain. Been drunk and threw up: Yyyyeeeaaahhh... only once though. They say it's important to know one's limits, but I don't know if this will ever be of use to me, since I've never been interested in drinking. Furthermore, after that time my disinterest has metamorphosed into flat-out distaste. Since I had never been drunk or even tipsy despite many a social drinking experience and some friend's attempts, I um. Got a little bit competitive with the drinking. On the bright side, nobody even saw me throwing up, I cleaned up most of my own mess [in the sink] before I was finally urged out of the bathroom by people waiting to pee for too long (The conversation went something like *worried friends:* "Are you okay in there...?"  Me: "Oh no, sorry, am I taking too long? I'll be out in a moment! There, finished cleaning- *throws up in sink again* -nevermind! Just let me clean this up first!" and then loop until they REALLY had to piddle), so anyways by the end of the party I got a rep for being the most polite and self-possessed drunk ever. XD I could take care of myself just fine. ...Anyways, getting ill from alcohol is awful, my advice is NEVER.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: grey, dull green, desaturated dark blue

LAST YEAR (2013) HAVE YOU: Made a new friend: Absolutely! Fallen out of love: Like Scor said- definitely, friendship-wise. Sometimes people that could have appeared great all along reveal a true nature that just shatters your illusions about them, and then you begin to find it very difficult to like them at all...  Laughed until you cried: Deeeefinitely.  Met someone who changed you: All the time! 8D  Found out who your true friends are: I think so! I hope so! Found out someone was talking about you: uhhhh. I guess?! Nothing dramatic though. Kissed anyone on your FB friends list: no.

GENERAL: How many people on your FB friends skype contacts list do you know in real life: A fair number First surgery:  hmm. Are stitches surgery? I was a tiny kid when I split my chin on ice, skating.  First piercing: none, and I don't want any xD;;  First best friend: Preschool. A girl I would pretend to be giant fruit vampire bats with.  First sport you joined: uhhh Teaball...?! Or... playground hockey?! First vacation: ....*bangs head against table* THESE QUESTIONS ALL REQUIRE SO MUCH THINKING BACK okay okay wait. Uhhh. Panama City Beach! ...Prrrrobably. First pair of trainers: What are trainers? I don't feel like googling it. Err, I had a pair of mandarin teachers back when we lived in Stockholm. They were a pair. They were training my bro n' I. That count? xD

RIGHT NOW: Eating: Styrofoam. ...I'm kidding xDD [/the real answer is Nothing.] I’m about to: Sleeeeeeepppp I want to sleeeep why is this meme taking so long WHY DID I DECIDE TO TAKE IT AT NIGHT Listening to: The sound of a big freezer humming at night Waiting for: The questions to stop coming

YOUR FUTURE: Want kids: IDK MAYBE. WOULD BE NICE TO ADOPT. WOULD BE NICE NOT TO MAKE CHOICES BETWEEN CHILD RAISING AND  SCIENCE RAISING. Pretty sure I could make the most of it in either possibility. Get married: yes absolutely I want to become awesome old ladies together with a wonderful wife!!!111oneone!!  Career: I want to do synthetic biology for a living because hot damn this is the most awesomely creative field of science ever with endless possibilities spreading before me in a magnificent painting of a sustainable future

WHICH IS BETTER: Lips or eyes:  Eyes?! I mean like in anime you can practically only draw the slightly hint of lips existing but the eyes are all WHOA HI Hug or kisses:  HUGGGGGSSSSS Shorter or taller: I wish I was talllll. quq But shorter people are more powerful weightlifters. It's a tradeoff.  Older or younger: I tend to admire older, mature women in anime more! That's right. Whenever the question gets awkward I'll make it about anime or something. Have a problem with that? xD Romantic or spontaneous: I like spontaneous animes coz they tend to be funny and fast-paced!  Nice stomach or nice arms:  Having a powerful stomach allows you to digest things better, but between that and muscly arms, I don't know which I envy more. The stomach is definitely more necessary for my health, however.  Sensitive or loud:  Loud characters are fun but insensitive characters would probably be my least favorite people IRL. Except for Toph. She's the exception. Plus loud. And also the best. Hook-up or relationship:  Random hook-ups are something that I appreciate in gag mangas, but I'd give it and the characters weird looks if they tried to make it romantic. I can't ship a hook-up; I can only ship an justifiable relationship. 

HAVE YOU EVER: Kissed a stranger: Nope Drank hard liquor: Yep? Lost glasses / contacts: Probably have, but forgot about it Sex on first date: Consider this: sex never 8'D Broke someone’s heart:  Maybe, and if so, purely unintentionally, and as a consequence of circumstances entirely out of my control. Been arrested: Nope. Good for them, because I'd sue. Turned someone down: yep Cried when someone died: yep Fallen for a friend: Yyyyyyes I think we can call it that!