#entry 08

Personally, I think I come off as a very open person and am unabashed to share several aspects of myself since others also listed things I liked (like manga, anime, and BTS) and have made it open to others that I’m queer. However in my opinion, the results of the activity doesn’t necessarily reflect much of my personality because there was a time constraint and most of the things written are just “surface” characteristics.

Of course, since I was not sure if the paper was going to be passed, I purposely chose to not write the negative things that I actually thought about myself. I suppose this is because of “performance”.  I try to keep an energetic front or “performance” through being chatty about things I liked or indulging in silly conversations. I can be serious and passionate about serious topics however I always try my best not to talk about my own personal struggles because I don’t necessarily want to burden anyone. When I become sullen and tired, it makes others concerned, especially during my depressive episodes.

I was honestly quite surprised with what the others wrote because most of them I don’t agree with. I’m not particularly talented and creative, and heavens know I’m not smart at all (I mean I’m failing this course what do you mean smart?). Aside from this, it was the first time someone called me Diyosa. Maybe it was meant as a joke, but it was still surprising nonetheless since I’m unattractive, so I did not expect it at all. Aside from this, I take pride in the fact that they thought of me as passionate, open minded, insightful, and opinionated since I have many topics I feel very strongly about.