Facial hair dysphoria hasn’t been bugging me, recently, because it seems everyone that lets a little grow is older than me. The brain just goes, “See? You’re just not old enough yet.” …. Then I see a dude, a little bit younger than me, posted a picture on FB. He’s got what I want and it looks soooo good. Now I’m sad all over again, because I’ll probably not be stating T until after graduation. :(
My parents are accepting. They’re just concerned I won’t really be happy, and they don’t understand the processes of T and top. I try educating them, but nothing. …. I’m pushing them too much, I know…. But god, when you’ve been waiting for this to happen naturally since second grade….
I’m just tired and sad, and I’ll eventually get over it. Not because it doesn’t matter, probably because I’ll see my angel and suddenly I can’t think about anything else. (He’s good at that lol.) …. I still worry about me being trans and him getting bored. Like, I know I know, he’s not that kind of person. He wouldn’t do that to me. The general anxiety of it all is still there, though.
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I don’t know what the purpose of this was. Just wish I could wake up one day and everything be right, you know? It’d make a lot of things easier.
