Dec 30, 2024
Oigghougghhht its 2am and I fucked my sleep schedule during last week's depressive episode which apparently STILL isn't over because I'm laying here convinced I'm old (I'm not??? Not that there is anything wrong with it but it's that insidious sense of anxiety about loss of youth and potential and 'the good years' or whatever untrue bullshit ) and all I can hear is that one line from mitskis class of 2013 on repeat forever
#WHY#the duality of Fran#i am not even a person who gets aging anxiety usually!!!!!#but now im like oh wasted potential im missing my life etc erc#GIRL WHAT POTENTIAL. I dont want to have children. i#so the usual bullshit trad leaning ppl give women in their late 20s doesnt apply to me#do I just feel. behind? career? relationship (lack thereof)? close in person friends??#EMPTY EMPTY EMPTY#i said oh i am going to be good and try to fix my sleep and not stay up all night playing video game#BUT NOW I AM JUST LAYING HERE IN AGONIES#the duality of fran#waughhhhhwaighuwaghh i need to like. read a book. do a craft. SEE THE SUN.
