#emotonal

02:10

23rd of July 2017

Been in a complete usual stress for the past week; can’t thank enough the heavens for the good sleep I had (more to come) plus the long weekend I am currently enjoying. How many more long weekends can I have?

I’m writing for two main reasons: one is because I miss writing, of course. Writing is my breather. It’s way too essential to forget. Second, is because I want express how I felt during my Tagaytay semwork and how I’ve been for the past week.  Where to start?

Just last Friday, I dutifully represented my grade level to this huge seminar workshop headed by the Department of Education (great, huh. Plus points for license). Basically it talked about teachers being in line with the ICT integration and its further demands for the 21st century. We were seven, all in all. Six of them are from LEAP, I’m the sole representative of the Segovia.  Given this, I had an initial feeling prior the departure that maybe this trip will just left me out from the group. God blessed me for I was explicitly comfortable with them through the three day-stay; had them laughing with my jokes and even opened up to one person I never thought I could trust. I arrived back home eventually, expecting myself to be disorientated the next school day. Apparently yeah I was hell of disorientated when I faced my students because I was late.

Turning the page, this past week was a patty in a sandwich; not too fun and definitely not something I want to remember. See, I can’t even recall the details. Ah. Twice I got emotional because of the sitdown meetings happened twice with my supervisors. The past week I felt again, the self-doubt, that maybe I’m not ready for THIS “big” school yet. Negative feelings surpassed at some point. Thank god.

I’m staying at home for the first time I guess since I started working. My girlfriend’s going to sleep the night here with me tomorrow. I hope that everything will be just fine, for tomorrow and for the coming days.