June 5, 2025, 6:11 PM

I am feeling so down because of the energy this house has been feeding me. but I know its my fault because of my past actions. but i guess "change" is no longer an option to them.

i guess these feelings is my karma from everything i did. but i only wanted to feel like a normal teenager, but i guess i was wrong for wanting to feel like one.

honestly, i wanted to feel like i am like them other teenagers. they have a family that understand them and just letting them be a teenager. (yk what i mean) I never got to experience that because we are not living in our own roof. and i know we have to respect their rules and i failed on doing so. and i am really terribly sorry for it.

I am slowly getting better from my mistakes, i am slowly changing into someone better. but my past mistake just came up and messed everything up.

The Lord knows how deeply sorry i am for the mistakes I did but i know trust me after what i did. i just need to be better for my own self. i will no longer be trying to impress them but myself.