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we asking the real questions now😭

16. katseye rpf😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 x reader shit😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 lord

okay i’m rlly exposing myself here

i don’t exactly Self Insert per say. i just like any depiction of megan being extremely wny n subby. its very hot okay sue me

whether it’s x reader or x member i just need my subby mei content💔

not going into detail tho i’m tryna keep this blog sfw lmao

17. idk man there’s a lot💔

i talk to myself ?:!:!:! like i’m a content creator?!?!! i’ve wanted to be a content creator since i was 9 years old lmao. i still do. thankfully tumblr has given me that outlet a bit. i rlly love writing random shit n posting about random shit and connecting with u guys <3 <3 maybe someday i’ll be confident enough to join the big leagues (get a youtube channel)

27. okay this is a rlly hard one bc like. i feel like a lot of my takes wouldn’t be considered controversial on fuckass Tumblr😭😭😭 but ill give some semi hot takes anyways. first of all. anyone can identify however they want, as long as its not hurting anyone else. like any gender is valid. neopronouns n xenogenders are valid. he/him lesbians are Hella valid. gender and sexuality is alr so complicated. just let people express themselves and respect them it’s not that hard

also the term “too woke” is actually harmful. i’ll never say that i’m too woke. like people in left spaces saying that other people are being “too woke” and saying “it’s not that deep” just pisses me off. 9 times out of 10 it is that deep, and writing people off as being “too woke” discourages awareness and lets harmful ideology thrive.

28. SICSETSCISETSCISETSCISET❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

i been a sciset truther for half my life dawg. they are genuinely my favs of all time and they’re the cutest sweetest most caring girlfriends ever. i love them so dearly. they mean the world to me🥹

if i tried to explain just how much i love them id literally be here all day. any of my posts w sciset tagged should give some insight😭

also sodani. niggas Rlly don’t like sodani for some reason. idk why maybe bc they're the two "straightest" members??? idc spaghetti straight till it gets wet or whatever the saying is

i probably ship them so much bc my first katz fic was sodani centric. i was a sodani truther ever since. i <3 comphet yearning❤️‍🩹

meichae is climbing up the ranks tho and Fast. they have no reason to be that damn cute omg. like i see why people are insane about them. they do Insane Shit. like you can't even call shippers crazy were not even making shit up😭 tb some "me n yoonchae kiss all the time" okay if u say so !!!!!!

Don't know how people do it. Just had my first massage and it was a great, needed, nerve racking experience. The entire time I was mentally panicing over her possibly touching my thighs. My mental thoughts felt so intense, that I’m considering looking into if I have PTSD, which idk, probably?? I’m not one to self diagnose myself

Constantly reopened my eyes to remind myself of where I was. As if I'll open my eyes and these last few years were all a dream, and I'll actually be right back there

Thinking the whole time “please don't- nope wrong context, I do want that area massaged. He’s gonna- no, that’s a girl, No no no, nevermind that was nice. I really really hope this doesn't feel like that one time. Okay, great, her grip isn't like his, thank god.”

Like just still with racing thoughts. Paranoia makes it hard to understand what actually makes me uncomfortable and what is a discomfort I should accept

“I have scarring on my stomach. Should I tell him. her. Craig. Did she find it gross? No, no, it's probably okay. I deserve to get a massage even with it.”

“Its okay, just relax. She's a professional. He isn't him. It's not like that. Okay she's adjusting the blanket, he adjusted the blanket. It's not going over my head this time right? Is Craig gonna- is she gonna listen?”

Felt like I just had his name playing like a broken record in the back of my head.

Despite all this it was an amazing massage, very nice and accommodating woman, she was a student in training so it was a very good price, and I feel much much better after than I did before. But in a way I dont know

When she was doing my legs, She asked if I wanted the front of my legs massaged and I was like mentally so freaked out by the idea “should I let her, because I should be able to deal with it? Should I say no, will I need an excuse?”

Sucked in a breathe and Politely asked her to not touch my thighs, she helped me out by just doing more neck and head work

I didn’t used to have this much sensitivity in the thighs. I swear the moment I saw him- it just flipped a switch in my head. I understood trauma somewhat back then, enough to know that the thigh thing hit my head like a bullet, I could feel the ring in my neurology, like a instant shift and my brain says “let’s be deathly afraid of this now.”

I don’t know how people do it- physically anything is so fucked up,

I could not get into my head that it was not a man and not that man, had to consistently reopen my eyes and look at her and look at the room. In my head I kept calling her, him, in my head, every touch I excepted it to be his.

Then I made the mistake of getting very high the same night, but my brain still didn’t stop, all I could think about was that fucking guy. Could not stop accidentally calling even my own sister a fucking man. Ughh someone just, ughhh, I had a great day, felt better after the massage, but also a nervous wreak, and his bullshit takes up so much headspace, so much energy

played rock paper scissors with a random person walking by in a restaurant

tried to cover up a fart in my super quiet biology class with a cough but the fart came out after my cough and everyone knew it was me

my voice cracked when i was doing a solo in choir a few days ago

i once said a rectangle was a square because i didn’t see the measurement was 2 inches wider. my geometry teacher thought i was messing around then kicked me out of the class and talked to me about my “bad behavior” (like what 💀)