#elusiveelusive

"I know that you don't care, but I want you to know.." ‘Hash Pipe’ by @weezer #Weezer personally encapsulates the struggle of fighting for something you give a damn about for a while and sticking through with it. I originally remember hearing this track on @kerrangtv when I was 14 and it’s on and off stuck with me ever since.

4.30am GMT. Nobody’s listening! It feels like that often on social media in the digital age to me too.

Hey, it’s cool that some of you respond to my work. I’m glad you enjoyed it! I’m pretty much going through an #existentialcrisis recently as I couldn’t possibly be working harder on my chosen career path and right at this point it’s actually getting me nowhere real.

Roll on Christmas when I’ll hang out with my sisters and forget about all this over the holidays. Read: Try To Forget.

I can’t get back to sleep. Again. I’ve started to accept this and run with it now. I sleep when I sleep, I guess.

Here’s another block of too many #selfies in a mildly justified #selfiemontage taken earlier at a time that isn’t 4am on Sunday morning.

I’m going to try and avoid doing this from now on. Boredom happens unfortunately. Hopefully, I will take my next real self-portrait early in 2016 when I - again, hopefully - will be with @canonuk DSLR again and a significantly better model than what I owned and borrowed in the past.

The accessibility of phone cameras has made all this easier, but I’m trying my damnedest to use it as little as possible. Being a Videographer and Stills Photographer without the real tools always feels like losing an arm to be quite honest with you.

Latest promo image for my visual promotion company Elusive Visuals that I created yesterday.

I have so much to do on the run-up to my latest portfolio website release. Firstly, my brain is beginning to melt from all the ideas I’ve accumulated over the past 3 years leading up to this rebranding and representation. Secondly, my eyes are popping out from staring at my laptop screen too much to create such images etc.

It’s also 5am GMT and I am back awake doing all of this again.