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Hi.
So if you read my weekly report youโll understand that on my last night of shifting (night 19) I was freaking out because there was a huge development in shifting.
I know that Iโm hyping this as if I shifted but everything was surreal and it really felt like a big night.
Iโll just describe the sequence of events in order:
It was around 1am, I was hydrated and already pretty drowsy so I was about to prepare to shift.
I read my script, said my affirmations and looked at my Pinterest bored for inspiration. Yunnoโฆtypical routine.
I couldnโt find my bandana to cover my eyes so I just ended up using my own blanket to cover my eyes. I turned on my white noise subliminal, mind you I used a different one than the one I typically used.
I was having a hard time focusing for the first couple minutes. My mind kept wandering and I couldnโt really visualize. I tried to keep as still as possible and I was in a relatively comfortable position.
So this is wear things are kinda messy as I canโt describe what happened between trying to visualize and the โhuge developmentโ what I can say is that I remember really tuning into the white noise and focusing on that, I also steadied my breathing. I did what I had to do and managed to visualize, than I spaced out.
I donโt know wtf happened between that time but when I finally snapped back to reality I felt like I was still in my bed but my eyes were seeing something completely different.
I felt like I was looking at this black void, it was like trying to hug the sunset, it was so big and vast and it was forever moving into the distance. Everything was so dark and I freaking panicked. My heart rate just completely went off the rails and I felt myself twitching in bed.
Just to be clear I was only seeing this void, I couldnโt see my CR or DR self inside of it or anything, but it was definitely different. All I heard was white noise but I couldnโt here anyone from my DR either. It felt familiar to what other shifters described when the got close to getting to their DR.
I tried to focus and visualize but by that point I was just so freaked out and my heart was pumping so fast that I just stopped that night.
Iโll try again on Thursday because Iโm not gonna try two days in a row (especially knowing how tiring that can be) and also Iโm getting my teeth pulled out and Iโve already done that once so I know how exhausting and painful that can be.
Anyways Iโm freaked out, however Iโm pretty excited to see what happens next, so stay tunedโฆ๐ฅโจ
