#egodram

To inform y'all, (or at least those who care lol,) I am "over the hill" as the illogical german saying would say, I feel better since 2 days, since:

- mirtazapine (antidepressant) is fully reduced, my sleep is better, my depression less bad.

- CBD therapy isn't "left behind"; started to take CBD in multiple forms multiple times a day - gosh, it's exhausting, to remind me of taking oil/vaping/other forms of smoking CBD weed/eating CBD edibles/ drinking CBD and CBG tea all day.

That means for the daily routine: Take CBD oil every few hours up to 5 times a day, drink CBG tea in the evening, whenever I have the nerve to make myself hemp tea, then plus that, and the worst and simultaneously best is to use my awesome Bong with a Klein perculator! (as seen above)

(It's "bad" because I am no smoker actually, and it gets intense getting hits "from the 4th dimension" (pun intended),

... eating 2 CBD cookies 2 times a day, and what the fuck, at least all the pain and cramps are gone, and that's worth the intensive care I have to do for myself.

(Self care is fucking hard, if you can't even eat properly or don't even recognize simplest basic needs, such as thirst or hunger, because you're literally so deprived of all basic human needs since your early childhood...)

But I won't complain.

Also, I have realized I am a huge narcisstistic asshole. I am over stressing about it - it won't change the fact that my life only revolves around me and myselves...

Also I started a new project (besides having literally 10 other unfinished projects parallelly)...

It's called "Egodram - my last chapter - or: How I made peace with the world by burying my ego"

I am aware of it. It’s alarming, and I was freaking out about it earlier today, until a friend of mine who is smarter than me reminded me that some first-year Republican congressdouche always submits a bill like this at the beginning of the new congress, and it never goes anywhere.

The blind seer

What might appear paradox at first, isn't actually paradox, for a seer doesn't "see" with their eyes, but with their mind.

The world we do inhabit consists of far more than what we are only limited to see; I don't mean it in a particular spiritual sense, but in the fact that when we come to understand this world, the things in it, and also ourselves, we are able to construct a far larger big picture than we are limited by using solely our eyes.

This world is fascinating, and why shouldn't we be curious about finding "what the world holds together in its innermost", as to quote Goethe?

So, I tell you: Close your eyes and begin to see...

The eyes are useless if the mind is blind...

Let your mind wander for curiosity has its own reason for existing. Why should nature gift us with the blessing of complex consciousness, if we couldn't use it?

Holy shit... I just remembered: I’ve been uploading Creepy-Pastas for a whole year now! Hopefully I can keep doing so for a long time into the future ^_^   “A.W.O.L.” by Egodram