see it is so hard for me to revel in my npd symptoms as i see others do when i am so cognizant of how it makes my life harder every single step of the way. even my hatred and distrust of authority makes my life harder because i can't just let things be, i have to assert myself and push back. and it is fucking exhausting sometimes. do you get what i mean. sometimes i wish i was stupid and clueless and fine with being average.












