#egh

not super extremely proud of this but I drew it at like 4 am so cut me some slack<//3

OG MEME UNDER THE CUT

Whenever I see an ask with questions about OCs, be it my own or someone else's, my instant paranoid thought is "welp, sure hope the answer won't be used for a chatbot/character ai creation of said OC".

It's a horrible thought to have. I don't like it. I can't believe it has come to the point where the paranoia exists in the depths of my brain.

first post i hope u gonna hatw me

This is why I don't talk to you Joe

i havent had mental health problems for roughly 1 1/2 years. maybe 1 1/4. ive been quite quite happy. but one thing that came with that is a lot of ambition to achieve a lot of things, mainly make a game, but theres a bit of a problem. despite my ambition being, as far as im concerned, by best trait, it's also my worst. i can rarely enjoy things in my free time anymore because i feel guilty for not continuing those projects. i feel like im not improving enough and im not making enough progress, and if i run out of time ill have nothing but experience for very unstable careers (mostly art). the best example of this, that being the most annoying one, is the fact that i dont really enjoy playing games anymore. the kind of games i want to make. the video kind. i have not played a video game that is not my own unfinished one in weeks now, with a few exceptions. so, not only can i not enjoy one of my favourite things, theres also the constant fear of not having enough time to complete the goals that are ruining things like gaming for me. not enough time. im 14 fucking years old i have so much time why is this happening. why. why does everything feel so fast. it isnt even that bad right now but im worried itll become worse and ruin more things for me. im scared it will consume me. ive been dealing with it pretty ok, reassuring myself by reminding myself that im STILL 14 AND I HAVE A MILLION YEARS and also that ive been making plenty of progress and im being hypercritical, im just not sure those are very healthy coping techniques. not sure how much they fix, especially in the long-term.