#efau!pj

ohhh my god i’m fucking SOBBING. i have way too many thoughts and my heart physically hurts

gonna have to get a little personal here

i made my current little errink family au for fun but it took a while to realize why i felt like i had to make it soft and comforting

and to be honest i think i love pj and error and ink (and gradi!!) so much because their canon reminds me of my own childhood. seeing a kid with a horrid relationship with their father and an ok relationship with the other parent even though they felt ignored?? and they’re scared to even act out in fear of seeming like their dad?? i was 12 when i read pj’s lore and i was actually inconsolable for days. this badass character in a fandom i loved was just like me.

i think in a way my au is like a love letter to the childhood i never had, or the childhood pj never did. in a way it’s like how on raises mono in such a kind and loving way, to make up for all the shit they faced with their dad

jesus christ there are tears all over my keyboard but like. i wanted to make a version of error that learned to. not be an asshole. make a version of ink that was a little more attentive BECAUSE error wasn’t an asshole. make a pj that could grow up happy but still be true (i hope) to who they really are

pj literally changed the way i think about myself, i used to hate myself for what my relationship with my father was like but it took an outside perspective to realize how much it wasn’t my fault. drawing them and writing them and seeing any art of them feels like giving my little self a hug