#eesha

i thought abt posting on tumblr like i made a post and deleted it before posting when i started itbut im liveblogging my read to one of my friends and that was enough for me. ignore that it’s been more than two weeks since i last picked it up but. yes. i am indeed reading gideon the ninth.

also lan sizhui and lan jingyi doing their handstands together. lwj and lxc helping them balance on their hands for the first time, their face red with exertion, cheeks puffed up in concentration.

the first time they tried, the first time they fell, the first time jingyi ran and scraped his knee, lxc brought them to the rabbits, told them a story. a story about a boy. a boy in cloud recesses. and jingyi and sizhui listen in wonder as lxc takes care of them while lwj is in seclusion. as they visit every month as they walk up every month, hands held behind their back waiting patiently for 3 years as lxc accompanies them and blinks the tears back from his eyes tried to rid himself of a memory. of almost the same scene, almost 25 years ago of a boy. a boy kneeling before a cottage in apology. and lxc smiles and he takes his leave after the door opens and he cries soon after bc god. he tried so hard to stop lwj's fate from this and yet they're here. but he wipes his tears because it'll be over in 3 years. 3 years...... (but we know. 16 years later, he's the one stuck in the same fate as lwj has the second chance he always wanted.)