#edwardtalks

I've been walking some very thin tightropes lately.. Trying to figure out my feelings and observing Dominic's actions in the mean time. It's starting to form a clear image that I'm starting to think that relationships aren't my thing? I don't know, but it almost feels like I'd be lying to myself if I kept throwing around that I do want a relationship with someone when in fact I really don't. I guess I'll just try and figure things out later on..

In The Netherlands it's currently about 33 to 36 degrees celcius and even Pokémon GO is sending out this message whenever you launch the app. As you can see it says that there's currently a hazardous weather alert..... What the actual fuck is happening to our weather these past few years ;-;

To everyone experiencing a serious heat wave or any kind of strong heat; Please drink enough water and try not to stay in the sun for too long while performing heavy work or physical activities! Stay safe everyone ♡

Maybe this was a stupid bet, but I don't care! A friend of Dominic's brother challenged us too a shoot-pushup-off, where basically you had to do pushups if you fucked up.

Every time you missed a shot at the goal, you do 2 pushups. Every time you hit it over the fence you do 2 extra on the 2 pushups for missing. Whenever you hit the top bar the others have to do 3 pushups each. And finally, whenever you touch the ball with your hands, no matter what the circumstances are, you have to do another 2 pushups.

I have no idea how many pushups we've done but man it has to be well over 100.... Val would be proud!

Lately I've been fronting more and more, giving me plenty of opportunities to chat with my gf and enjoy some time with my friends~

It's been quite a rollercoaster of emotions for the past few weeks since our summer vacation started... One of the housemates of Dominic is leaving and we had to arrange a meet up so people could take a look at the room if they wanted it or not, but luckily we finished that yesterday and will be accompanied by a new girl in the house starting from the 1st of August!

We visited a good friend of ours for 4 days and had some certain tension going on due to a very stupid action of Stephany... We won't go into any details but let's just say it was naive, stupid and a bit heartless. Nonetheless, we enjoyed ourselves during these 4 days and won't forget the times we had ^^

The last bummer though was today, when we just arrived at Dominic's parents' place. Just shortly after we arrived his grandma dropped by to say hi, but a fierce discussion got formed between his mom and grandma, eventually leading to such serious annoyances which ended up in a (verbal) fight, causing his grandma to leave and his mom to be devastated and irritated at the same time. Since we were the only ones home we had to hear her out and ended up locking ourselves in our room to avoid any further triggers, since it involved the reason why Dominic has DID... In the end we left after dinner and went outside to have some fun with his brother and some of their friends, trying to focus our attention at something else.

It was not one of the nicest of starts of our vacation, but we can most certainly improve it! Tomorrow and next week from Monday till Friday we'll join his dad on his work to earn some extra money, which we'll use for our vacation to France~ Let's just hope things won't get out of hand while we, literally, work our way to our true vacation ^^'

Me: I'm Majorly Terrified When They Fall Somewhat Stupidly.

Person: What...?

Me: I'm Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday.

Person: Ehm...

Me: I'm week. As in sounds like "weak", which I am. Weak.

Person: .....

Person: Dude fuck you.

Not much interaction from the headspace nor inner world and fronting for longer periods of time that is.

Today was mostly just me preparing for Dominic's birthday party tomorrow and partly celebrating Kenshi's birthday in the inner world, though I mostly fronted outside of all that commotion...

It's been quite calm and luckily nothing much happened! As of now I'm just relaxing on the couch while playing some videogames.