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WHY AM I WHO I AM?

When I was five years old, I was an enthusiastic child. Always participating in activities, joining school-based contests, doing speeches, and confident in performances. My pre-school years were loaded with fun. I was eager to learn what I’m good at, my skills and talents, and to make friends from time to time. At the end of my junior high school year, I was someone who rarely interacted with classmates and new people, I was either with my friends or by myself. I’m more aware of my true self, ambitions, and goals. During my first day of class in senior high school, I never talked to anyone, it took me one whole week before I started communicating with my classmates. Still, I know to myself that I have more confidence in my mental capacity, skills, and other different attributes.

Looking back, there was a big contrast between my personality as a child and as an adolescent. As I grew up, my confidence to present myself in front of people lowered and lowered. This might be due to the fact that I wasn’t really raised or encouraged to perform in front of a crowd. We were also raised to always be humble. During my junior high school, I was content about knowing that I have talents and skills without having to share/talk about it with others or post it on social media.

I couldn’t really find that many similarities between me and my parents. One of my closest friends even said that I don’t look like them that much. The only thing I can think of was my handwriting. It resembles my mom’s small cursive handwriting and sometimes, it would look like my dad’s rigid-looking handwriting. But one thing that I learned/adapted to them was the love for movies. My dad watched a lot of movies and bought/collected DVDs. I grew up watching movies every day.

The environment I grew up in contributed a lot to my development. I am a very observant and curious person. I learned a lot through others perspectives, experiences, and ways.

HOW OLD AM I?

Age is determined by a lot of factors. You may be 32 but still think and act like a 25-year old, you may be 15 but appear to be 20-year old. I asked my friends about how they perceive my age from a biological and social perspective. Biologically, they think I’m just like my chronological age which is 19. I disagree a bit with this. Since the pandemic, I’ve lost a lot of weight due to stress, anxiety, and other factors. It’s been a long time since we last saw each other so they’re not much aware of how I look. This affected me greatly with my strength. I feel like a 15-year old can lift more weights than me. 

Socially they perceive me as a 13-year old during casual times and a 30-year old when I give them advice. Honestly speaking, I agree with them. The way I socialize depends a lot on the situation and who I’m talking to. I’m well relaxed to talk with my friends, anxious to strangers, and formal around teachers or any work staff. Psychologically, I would say that I’m around 23. I have noticed that I am a bit more mature among my peers but still have the tendency to be a bit childish. It’s really hard to say, it’s not consistent.