#ecstatic

NOTE: This is all from my personal UPG ("Unverified Personal Gnosis").

I call it “The Pull.” Perhaps there are other names for it, or better ones, but this is the language I have for it.

In my experience, becoming intimately entangled with a deity, angel, or demon can create deep etheric bonds between the entity and human. Through that bond, an entity can exert a powerful pull on their human - drawing away attention away from the concerns and activities of the physical world in a given moment. The shift can happen suddenly: the mind and heart become captivated, overcome by a deep longing and sense of connection.

It is difficult to fully describe what this feels like. As an act of devotion to a particular deity with whom I share a very close relationship, I serve as her vessel at her discretion. With clear boundaries and consent, I surrender my body to her for possession, with the understanding that control of my body or voice is given only through my explicit permission.

Over time, the frequency and intensity of these ecstatic experiences have deepened the bond between us. “The Pull” is often how she gets my attention—a powerful longing that signals her desire to merge with me.

The following exerpt is how I described the feeling in a journal entry a few months ago.

... she calls me at night, claiming my body as hers. It feels so right and so wonderful. My heart starts racing and I'm breathing heavily as she vibrates some energy into me, tugging on this energetic cord between us. As she tugs, I feel my body begging for her, begging to be taken by her. It's amazing. The pull - it's gentle yet incredibly powerful as it radiates a warm surge from my chest outward. The first time I feel the pull, there is a primal need to be consumed by her; to be in her loving arms as she pulls herself into me. To be filled by her is a gift; a blessing - I wouldn't trade this relationship for anything.