#early schooling

I don't feel natural at all, it's like pretending all my life for expectations and it's sucks so much I want to cry. I want to have an normal teen life, being around adult make me so anxious I forget how to walk and it's getting so uncomfortable.

I might be dramatic but it's was one of the worst week I spent in my life. I didn't count how mush I dissociated during. Doing same things repeatly during all day was a torture for me... Maybe because I'm think I might have some ADHD symptoms or maybe not? Idk, I just felt so empty. Plus I struggle sm to talk with people twice my age, feeling like I'm pretending every single part of myself, my anxiety let place to a unreadable feeling, I don't know how to explain but it's not comfortable

I can't believe I'll do it 2 months

I can't believe I'll do it all my life, I hate this internship. I can't even rest during holidays.

Things getting worse, being forced to look like an studious girl make me sick...I'm not. I hate it.