â  sometimes i wish you would just  LEAVE  !  â  he does not mean to be angry   ;   especially not at the sibling who never strays too  far from his side  (   not to the only one who has been with him, regardless if it has been out of need.  )    heâs scrambling over the floor, knees painfully pressing into the neatly polished wood as fingers with short bitten nails DIG into grooves he is sure did not exist beforehand. heâd dropped his pill, and now the demons are once again banging onto the doorstep of his poorly defended brain.Â
â  I DONâT NEED YOU, BEN  !  â  he knows why heâs saying this   /   knows why the anger drips from his tongue like venom, but that does not mean that heâs able to stop the bitterness from slipping out. heâs gone  too long  without a hit, without a way to shut out the world inside his mind which once again is starting to feel too real for his liking.   â  so why donât you just do me a favour and  leave me alone.   â
@duresce    (  for ben, maybe ? )    //   ⥠ this random starter call









