#duckish

They’re so cute!!

Hanataro was never supposed to be this involved, but as soon as I introduced him to Kaito he just... took over XD

We had a staff meeting in terrible heat and humidity, and then I went home and slept off a headache. But I did get lots of cuddles from the kittens, and anyway I’m properly celebrating my birthday next week with the family, so it’s not a huge deal. 

@duckish Yes that is EXACTLY it

like - you can pick things up with the force. you can move things around. i read a fic the other day where yoda and anakin do controlled falls that have the appearance of flight, which i genuinely cannot figure out if it's canon or not. so the Obvious thing to do here is to start figuring out how to use the force to affect several items at once

using papercraft in force experiments means that when your concentration or rhythm slips and everything falls, nothing is going to break

the papercraft begins probably because sai's jedi master teaches them how to fold something and then sai finds an origami book and now sai and anakin are making paper airplanes and cranes and learning how to support both of them in the air... and learning, essentially, how to use their saber as a baseball bat, which helps their reflexes and their force-intuition (and, as an unexpected side benefit, it's good practice for releasing feelings into the force, because they laugh a lot but they also get REALLY FRUSTRATED)

ha ha ha ha, it’s like his entire mindset is ‘sounds fake but okay’

To be fair, DE!Kaito’s Distinctive Trauma is a twisted mix of “disaster victim” and “war survivor” -- it was sharp, abrupt, momentarily crushing, and then suddenly he was “rescued” and brought into a world where the disaster/war hadn’t yet happened and everything was peaceful/untouched.

For him, everything “went wrong” because he and Ichigo always acted as rivals instead of partners, trying to one-up one another and letting each other get into combat alone.

For a born!Kaito having DE!Kaito’s backstory, add in long term traumas such as poverty, low level starvation, constant fear of discovery, an unknown father, the eventual death of his only trusted support figure (his mother) in a hostile environment, having to survive that hostile environment on his own, being kidnapped and experimented on before either escaping or being freed (perhaps his Ichigo-esque friend was made before his kidnapping and he was kept out in a Rukongai lab instead of in SS directly), and then returning to that life of poverty and fear and add in being uprooted and constantly on the move DUE to that fear, followed by his friend dying and him being kidnapped AGAIN except this time brought to the Living World and told this stranger is his unknown father?

Please take care of yourself and don’t stress about posting anything! Your health is more important. I hope you feel better soon!

lol, at the moment I feel waaaaay too flat-lined to really care about posting anything anyway. Which really should have been my first clue that I’m sick, considering that I normally DO stress when I can’t get something out on time. And this week has just been me slowly feeling less and less like doing anything so.. yeah. Probably been getting sick since like Monday.

Aww, good pets. Nice scritches.

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Local baku reveal themselves to humans for the first time.

Mine is Polk is pale.

OH LOL THAT NEVER OCCURRED TO ME. 

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Wait, the brain fog goes away?

I mean, caveat, it does for me. I can’t even presume to tell you that the brain fog I get is from ADHD or some other neurological issue, I’m not diagnosed and may in fact not have it (I’m workshopping the problem, not least because ironically getting an examination for ADHD involves making phone calls). 

I find that if I’m feeling like I can’t focus, like I’m in a mental haze, if I can engage with something in some way for just long enough, it’ll pull me in and my actual focus returns. If I can crack the textbook and start reading, even if I’m not retaining, by the third or fourth page I’m deep enough into it that I’m able to concentrate and I can go back and look at what I missed. Sometimes it just means looking at pictures in the book for a couple of minutes first. It’s getting the book open that’s tough, but if that’s the specific purpose of why I’m there, it’s a little easier. (Not having a smartphone probably helped.) 

It’s still the same today at work -- if I can get the files I need open and just start filling out the mindless “look up info and enter it” shit, after about five to ten minutes I can start on the more creative parts of the assignment, and then go back to the really complicated “look up info but in a separate database requiring a lot of discerning of good from bad data” bits. 

It’s why I stopped using Word for my work and started using OneNote (a fancy expensive Microsoft version of Evernote) -- I just have OneNote always open and all the templates and documents I need are always available inside it, so getting started is way less effort.