#drunk!derek meme

"No, ‘m fine, Cass," he said, looking down at his daughter with tears on his cheeks. "Just go back to bed, baby. Please. It’s okay, I’m okay.” Derek wasn’t okay. He didn’t look okay, either. He reeked of liquor, and his eyes were sunken in. He’d been crying. “It’s okay, I love you, it’s okay. Go back to bed. Please just go back to bed…”

"I love you," he said, half-concious and heavily intoxicated. Derek had his head on Shimmer’s bare-belly, slipping into the warmth that sleep was offering him. "Sometimes I think that’s a lie and that ‘m just desperate to feel someth’ng, but…" He opened his sleepy eyes, smiling sheepishly in a way that was incredibly uncommon. "No, I… I love you, I think. I think ‘m in love with you."

"Where the fuck’ve you been, Jackson," Derek asked roughly, waving the bottle of Jack at him. "Decidedt’ finally come back from London. Finally grow a pair of balls, Jackson? Finally decide to not run away from your problems? Yeah?" The alpha turned to look at him, dark circles under his eyes from both lack of sleep and the excessive amount of alcohol he’d been drinking. "Idon’twantyouhere. Get out.”

"First, you took Scott, you took him, and then Stiles. You took Stiles, and you took them both and you… you stole them.” Derek was angry but drowsy, and so his anger quickly turned into sadness. Exasperated sadness. “You took them, and you’re taking Isaac. You… I don’t have anybody and you have everybody. I don’t know what t’ do, I’m… I’m alone again and again and again and again… And you have everybody.”

"I don’t know, I don’t know…" He shook his head, looking up at his boyfriend from his place on the ground, knees tucked into his chest. "I don’t know what ‘m supposed to do. People keep dying, people… It’s my fault, and I don’t know what— what to do… I don’t know…"

"I did something baaad, Allie. I did something bad…" Derek curled up in his bedsheets, back to the brunette, clutching his fifth beer in his hand. He looked up at the sky in the window, at the eclipse. "I brought her back. Julia, her name is Julia… I brought her back when Paige died, Allie. I wanted to help her, I only wanted to help her, I didn’t mean it… I didn’t mean it…"