#dream 13

I find this almost unbearably moving for some reason.  These are not even my memories.  But they are someone’s, and time has left this day behind and carried the happy people shown here to the place it takes us all.  

Max Richter - Dream 13 (minus even)

與貞去看了電影Max Richter’s Sleep，套票包含一張八小時濃縮為一鐘頭的精選專輯From Sleep。推薦曲目四：Dream 13，特別溫暖。

電影無限療癒，對於（後）現代性的個人存有，以深邃而動容的音樂，依照自然生長規律的頻數那樣推展，以撫慰，領著我們思索這加速日常裡的安生。這樣寄寓於歇息時刻，如同被毯那樣無微不至地覆蓋，沉沉地，我們舒展開所有內在。於是觀看至末尾，幾乎有些眼淚。

作曲家Max Richter的妻子Yulia Mahr說：「我認為生命裡的脆弱性，以及生活中諸如此類的脆弱，就是他想談的事情。朝向認識世界的正確道路，還有人性，是我們在探索著的重要語彙。我們都是有缺陷的人類，對吧？」

Blue. Red. Blue. Red. Blue.

Identity. Our names fabricated. Our stories looked upon by strangers. Our feelings diminished, emphasized, repressed, prioritized. Our faces void of emotion, as if swept away.

Red. Blue. Red. Blue. Red.

Identity. Our privacy marketed. Our intimacy violated. Our existences reduced to numbers and tags. Our uniqueness industrialized and manufactured. Our ideas and ideals mocked by others.

Blue. Red. Blue. Red. Blue.

i had a pretty intense dream last night it took place on stage in the musical of the avatar world. (a serious one not the funny one lol) taking place a little bit after the main series ended when the chatacters were a bit older

it was the scene where uncle iroh died and joined the spirit world. it was also the crescendo or one of the final songs of the musical

the way it was set was the main characters, aang then katara, sokka, toph, suki, zuko and iroh were all walking up a circle staircase over and over. growing older each time they went around n saw the audience again while music played

then iroh wasnt there for one revolution. he had vanished really suddenly too and we didnt see where he went. zuko knew without even looking back n ran back down screaming “uncle! uncle where are you?”

at the bottom he got to this room where the bridge between life and death was there zuko ran out appearing on one side and irohs spirit was there on the other side they couldnt speak to eachother but they could see eachother and the bridge was clearly open to either side but neither could walk to the other

zuko was clearly upset but couldnt speak and paced back n forth on his side clearly crying

and when he stopped the song started.

a final farewell between zuko and iroh and i cant remember anything about it except it was somber but powerful with iroh not able to do or say much but echo zukos lines back to him

in the dream i was onstage as various characters but here in this part i was katara

as the main characters slowly trickled in i remember that there was a lot of us. like there was me as katara on one side and another girl as katara on the other side. each had a mirror like zuko to iroh in stage positon and me and other katara were first to stand in position n light blue candles using waterbending? or something to show it was the bridge between the life/human world n death/spirit world

the most powerful part came in when the musical did something it wasnt supposed to

we all started joining in the song, when it was supposed to be just zuko n iroh. each person echoing a different part in a thunderous chorus

if i had to compare the tone n song itself it was halfway between Shadowland from Lion King and Will I Lose My Dignity from Rent. it was powerful yknow? wish i could remember but the lyrics they were basically zukos rememberences of memories they shared. and if a character was present for that they also each echoed that line, so it was especially beautiful when only zuko or zuko and iroh sung cuz that was a moment only they had together like when iroh forgived zuko n hugged him

it ended when iroh walked away into the blue light n zuko could no longer hear his echoes, singing as he went

and then i woke up and went DAMN.