#dpd update

Right now, I'm feeling very.... real.

It's kind of scary.

My mom and I had the "future talk" today and I guess it just made me see that my life is coming... and it's coming faster than I realize. And that's kind of scary for me to think about.

So I hope that maybe thinking about it this much will help me overcome this hurdle a little more.

Because I don't want to spend my life behind a screen.

I just want to be real and happy and alive.

Part of me is incredibly depressed right now, though. I guess this happens a lot though.