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Do I scare some of my friends here? My close tumblr and Skype buddies especially. Like am I really intimidating to them? Or is it that everyone is night bloggers and that I’m the out liar morning blogger?
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I don’t know it’s just- I know a lot of my friends here have social anxiety, but whenever I try to talk to them they end up being busy inconveniently or we only have time for a small little chat and then that’s it...
My best friends in real life KR and AR has social anxiety and I understand how that goes, but.... I just-
...... just because I don't have any mental illnesses like that except SAD doesn't mean I should feel like friends don't like me or think I don't respect them that they have social anxiety because I DO respect them.
The only reason I can't voice call either on Skype is because the internet connection is terrible in my room where I need to hide since our router is out-dated. Also, my parents are around almost 24/7 and they are soooo freakin old that they just sit there all day while my mom is constantly paranoid and over protective of what I do. I KNOW she would not approve what I do on the internet and I KNOW she doesn't approve me meeting strangers online, but what am I suppose to do? HUH? WHAT!? SIT THERE AT SCHOOL 24/7 ALL ALONE WHILE EVERYONE IN MY FREAKIN GRADE CONTINUES TO MUTTER UNDER THEIR BREATH ABOUT ME AND SAYING I'M WEIRD, I SHOULD BE LIKE THEM, AND-
KEEP SAYING THEY ARE BETTER THAN ME AND I SHOULD BE THEIR F**KING G*D D*MN EYE CANDY DOLL!!!
BULL F**KING S*IT NO!!!!! I'M SO DONE!!
I always end up losing my well worth friends too in real life and they always end up forgetting about me and- and- I’m afraid that might happen with KR and I’ll be alone again. All I need are friends..... is that too much to ask?
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