I try to be organised. I’m not. I have far too many belongings but that’s a personal journey I’m currently working through. Sometimes I cling onto shit I know I’ll never need but desperately want to keep. Other things I find and question why the fuck I’ve kept it at all. Chuck. I’m slowly getting better. I don’t need things. I just need my sanity. Which I slowly LOSE in all my clutter, holy shit. CHUCK IT. Or as I say at work

“I found this on the floor Miss B…” 

“BIN IT!” 

“What?” 

“BIN!”

Yeah, I need that mentality right there a little more at home.

Most things I have just need to be used. I like to Spring clean and become everyone’s favourite giftee. Here, free this, free that. Take it. Don’t want it. Don’t need it.

I try to be creative. I kind of am. At least, I think I am. I paint for a hobby but don’t plan on leaving my day job for it. I use that shiz at work. Decorating my room, my house, my bedroom. How can I make it personal, weird, different? What makes it really mine? I can’t answer that but ym colleagues certainly can recognise if it’s mine. 

“Must be Rachel’s” 

“Oh, that looks like Rachel would wear/love/use that!”

Usually odd eclectic items fit that description. However I’m not a hippy. I love animals, I want to recycle. However I don’t deviate that far from the norm to be defined in any kind of way.

I realized that no matter what I do on social media sites to get various stars's attention, it would never work

because, who are you to be noticed by a load of famous people?

you think making a lot of fan pages, blogs dedicated to them, twitter accounts, Instagram fan accounts, etc would let them notice you?

I'm sorry for making such a post, but it is true ( well for me)

because you know what, I will never be worth it to be noticed by them at all.

and I hate myself for making this at all.