#dontdieonmeyet

we were friends

we were in love

we were dating

and then we became distant

and now it's like we are who we are when we first met

and when people ask me "what are you two?"

i say the three things, a fourth

with a magnifying glass

examining every detail

hoping to find

a wider context.

i realise if i put it away

my eyes go blurry

and i fall out of focus

so i zoom in again

and the world

tiny and full of grace

I cannot pull myself out of my skin

become your heart, nourish your mind

beyond what already is and will always be

to say I’m sorry

to settle for less

feel what you feel

i miss the ocean tides

the taste of salt on your skin

and honey you gave in kind

sailing past and

hoping to find once more

quiet, reserved, full of life

holding my words inside and continuing with life

and somehow

honesty requires no words,

it requires meaningful action

so when you say nothing

and i know that something can be done

about the way things are

i finally know

my heart is blue

the sky is grey

my eyes are pink

as i grow and become

i realise that to be loved is not the same as love itself

for many people will love you in their own way

without realising that maybe

i don't need to be given water and fed in the sunlight