#done it

If I felt it. I sang it.

If I sang it. I’ve done it.”

50k words done! ended my last writing sprint with 50,305 words! and got this message one NaNoWriMo:

and then this one when I clicked to go to the swag page:

BUT

This is the fastest I've ever hit the 50k words, and here I was thinking I wouldn't hit it until later.

Group agreed that literally everyone they know who lives in such an enviornment relapses. The therapist asked me how I handled the situation back when I lived there last year. To which I replied: "Wasn't at home a lot. Most of the time I was in (XY city) getting high with friends."

The group laughed in an understanding way, because how else could it be?

My roomies are all respectful of my decision to stay clean, yet yesterday evening after coming home (and thinking to myself "Aight. Imma be the one person who remains abstinent at the Ballerbube. They're gonna be so impressed.") I ordered something to smoke 🙃

My therapist and I had hoped that if I called the rehab clinic I'll go to, they would tell me a date for when I can come in. But instead I got told that it'll be at least another 4 months 🙂 And four months living in a Ballerbude. After just having finsihed detox 🙂