#domagi

The last few days were a little difficult for me. Trying to manage many different issues at the same time, having to do with people who drain your energy is really a very serious issue. So last night, considering the events of the last few days and thinking about my next moves, I decided to come in contact with my Patron asking for His guidance. And I got it !!

I woke up this morning with a completely different mood, determined to distance myself from people and events that kept me back and put all the weight on this challenge. And of course with a new idea to make the ascension through the void meditation. 

I sat comfortably on my pillow on the floor, lit my Patron’s incense, closed my eyes, began to chant his Enn and suddenly began the whole process pop up in my mind. How will I do it, what will I do, when will I do it...

"Go to your favorite place," His voice told me so i started to visualize my favorite beach from when I was a kid. This place always calms me, always make me feel so peaceful. 

Started to visualized that it was a sunny day, I was on my own there, the sea was totally calm, there was no sound and I gazed the sea. I began to add senses. I began to hear the waves very faint in the beginning. Then I began to feel the heat of the sun on my face. A light breeze on my body. The warm sand at my feet. The smell of the sea. Until I felt like I was really there.

I stayed for a while at this stage of relaxation until I began to remove senses. Initially, I stopped feeling the warmth of the sun, stopped listening to the waves, stopped to smell the sea. I started looking at the sun, which started to become a black ball that It was slowly growing up till it covered everything until everything turned to total black. An absolute darkness but with absolute calmness. I felt as though I was in the void. I visualize in that utter darkness that I was on the edge of a cliff, and I just let myself fall into the void. I felt a pull in the stomach, which scared me enough, and abruptly returned to reality....Failed....it seems that this way works better for me, im thinking to work more on this way. Thank you, King Paimon for your help and guidance! 

Notes: 1 ) Totally different sense from falling in trance state. 2) The sense of falling into the void was pretty scared, need to bypass that fear. 3) Need to do the whole same progress every time? I don't know. i think i will find it out the next days.

Incense: Frankincense