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Last day of this challenge...Its the first time that i took part in this challenge and definitely not the last. I started with a specificated goal on my mind and during those 30 days i ended up in a different direction. Working with the Daemonic you never know what they will manifest on your way, what they want to teach you, what you are ready for and where they will lead you. The only thing you have to do is to let yourself totally free and they will guide you, they will show you what is right for you. 

I didn't reach ascension which was my goal when i started. But i reached something most important for me. My connection with my Patron became stronger than ever. All those days he guided me, he was helping me, he saw me things that i couldn't imagine and most important he makes me understood the true meaning of working with yourself, how you can establish your connection with the Divine if you remove the obstacles and that EVERYTHING depends from BALANCE. I'm very happy and satisfied with my self as I'm still a beginner in this path, and no matter if this challenge ends today i will definitely continue my practice on a daily basis. A whole new perspective unfolded in front of me and i can't wait to discover it! Thank you Paimon for this!!! 

So, for today i meditate in frond of Paimon’s altar. I put both of my hand on his altar and i started to chant his Enn. I felt his energy coming up from his altar. I didn't go too deep, as i felt his presence almost immediately. A golden bright light surrounded me and i felt very calmed and peaceful. I release and direct my energy too and i let it merge with his energy. I visualized the two energies become one. I felt a warm air on my face, and at this point, i asked him what he means when yesterday during my meditation told me to “connect the space between”. He didn't reply...i guess i will know when the times come...

I felt in deep trance pretty easy today. I visualize that i was on the edge of a cliff and let myself fall to emptiness. I reached the void state pretty easy as well. All this time i was chanting Paimon’s Enn. i felt floating to the emptiness till i felt a force pulled me down.

I was again in the room made out of amethyst crystals (see Day 23). Again, i felt a presence next to me but i couldn't see anyone. I had the sense that i was guided, i mean i wasn't able to decide for myself where to go or what to do. There was a white marble spiral staircase, but something didn't let me go there. 

I notice that i had pushes and pulls on my body and i also notice that my energy field increased tremendously, and I was glowing (???!!!) I tried to direct this light that came out of my body, more specificated i tried to gather it in an energy ball, but it was impossible. I put a lot of effort, but no results at all. 

To be true a felt a lit bit afraid, why i couldn't manipulate this energy? Where it came from? it was my energy? 

The room was totally quiet and peaceful when i started to hear trumpets. Close to the stairs, i think i saw a silhouette, but i cant be sure. The only thing i heard was “u must connect the spaces between. go now”.................. And the voice called me with not my name, but with another name that i haven't heard before.

My daily meditation started at 6.30 am in the morning. I prefer to do my meditation this time, first, cause it's still quiet where i live - no external noises etc - , but i have found that practicing meditation when u wake up, before u do anything else, its easier at least for me to reach deep trance or to work with my energy.

Started by visualize Paimon’s sigil and chanting his Enn. I felt his presence but same time i felt some kind of vibrations come on slowly. Vibrations went, then came on again. Till i felt a strong force lift me up with incredible speed. 

I found myself in a park during twilight with the full colors of autumn on the trees. The colors came to life and suddenly I felt euphoria wash over my body.  Trees, rivers, even just grass became incredibly interesting. Nature became absolutely fascinating! In fact, the ground might look like it’s breathing.

Did my daily practice in meditation early in the morning, but i decide not to go too deep. 

Started with some breathing exercises and drawing down white bright light through my crown chakra and i passed through all of my body to the ground. When it reaches the ground, i lifted up, from my feets up to the crown chakra again and i let it surrounded me by creating a bubble of energy. 

I felt warm, cozy, and lethargic. I had some difficulty to focus, thoughts pop up all the time, i believed this caused cause i was mentally tired and needed sleep. (slept only 3 hours the night before).

The point is that i tried to keep the bubble stable and expanded around my body, which i did it. 

As only a few days of this challenge left, it's strange, cause i started with a goal in my mind, but during the process, i found myself in another direction. That doesn't mean that i stopped working on ascension, but i realize that the last year everything was connecting and everything happened for a reason. Connected and guided from the Daemonic. Many questions were raised...

My today’s meditation was a little bit different. I boiled a handful of dried Salvia leaves in a mug-sized amount of water for about a minute. I poured it through a strainer into a mug with a sage teabag (same genus) and let that steep for 5 minutes. 

I put my headphones with drumming music, and before i started to fall into trance stage i drink some of the Salvia tea.  It took only 5-6 minutes to take effect.

First thing i felt it was flash solid colors and I could feel the sound waves of drumming music hitting me and bouncing around the room. At that moment I became a ball of energy.  It felt like I left this world and entered a new reality. I found myself in a field with tall, green grass and i had a feeling that i need to accomplish something. Seeing the energy lines of everything point upwards. All the noise around me turned into a kind of trumpets.

I also felt like a pair of arms wrapped securely around my waist, also pulling me, but somehow, keeping me safe. And I went back into my own memories of the last year. That's exactly what i wanted! 

The return to normal reality was automatic, smooth, and quick. No side effects for the rest of the day. Last time i used Salvia was many years ago. For a recreational purpose, it's a waste of time unless you are a childish fool.

Notes: 1. My fiance was there with me in case something goes wrong.

           2.  I believe that this is a very powerful thing, actually. Note that this is from half of the cup.

My today's meditation was more like a conversation than a “training”.

Yesterday while I was digging through my journals of this year, I came to the point to realize some things. All the obstacles, the difficulties, the things, the people that came or left from my life this year didn't happen incidentally. There was a pattern and now I can see it crystal clear. Working with the Daemonic there is no randomly actions, I believe. In order to make you a better person, more enlightenment, to have a better connection with the Daemonic Divine, they will remove or put you obstacles, they will test you, they will give you a strong kick in the ass, cause you need it. At least in my case...

Started as always, by calling Paimon. I didn't go deep, I stayed in trance stage, not light but not deep. Something between. I felt his presence, the usual vortex in my solar plexus and a golden bright light surrounded me. I was full aware of my body but not where I was. I had the sense that I was lifted from the floor but not too high.

I was trying to remember to asking Him all the questions that I had in my mind, questions that came up by reading my journals. I wasn't able to remember the most of them.

He didn't answer none of my questions...The only thing that he told me was the word “Redemption” and nothing more......

 “High Realm. You will not reach ascension and you are not prepared for this at the moment. Keep working with your self and the day you will reach it, you will know that you did it. But not yet. You have reached to be somewhere between your world and Middle Realm. Keep working there. Balance your self more, and when you are ready you will have the help that you need from me” - King Paimon...

Started as usual, early in the morning. Connected with Paimon it only takes me 2-3 minutes now. This fact, on its own, its a huge success for me! I will continue working on it at and the end of this challenge. 

No need to fall into void anymore, sometimes i have the feeling of “falling”, others don't. The moment the connection established i feel a huge power lift me up and puss me with an extremely high speed ..Same happens today.

Found my self in the woods. There were many trees and bushes and i couldn't see a path to follow. I started to walk, by bypassing them. I stopped in an opening with no trees or bushes, only full of colors, looked like flying. There were colors everywhere! 

Only 7 days left until the end of this challenge and to be honest, i don't know if i will reach my goal. But this is not the point. During this challenge, the only thing im sure that i archive is that my connection with my Patron became stronger than it was before. For me, that's a huge success! 

Today’s meditation started early in the morning, so many things to do as the holidays are almost here! 

Drumming music in my headphones, lit some incense, focused on Paimon’s sigil, chanting his Enn same time and the connection was established almost immediately. That didn't happen in the past. Our connection has changed and i can feel it. 

As i felt his presence, I was already in a light trance and His first words that he told me was “focus.” I was already focused and i didn't understand what he means. “Focus, and go deeper”. Next moment i felt a power pull me, i lost orientation and i didn't have the sense of my body. A little bit of nausea in the beginning followed by intense, bright lights. My sense of time was completely gone and it felt I just had a glimpse of a dream world that was connected to our normal world. 

To be honest, I started to panic, but before this panic attack holds me back or through me out I heard this voice again “focus and breath”. This voice calms me immediately.

This puss of power again and i found myself in a beautiful place, I was in a room made out of amethyst crystals, It was peaceful and bright and felt very happy and serene. Directly in front of me was a throne made of crystals. Cant describe the beautifulness with words...I was aware of a presence close to me, but i didn't saw anyone. Just the feeling that someone was there...

I called Paimon’s name and he replies “I'm here”...Still, wasn't able to see him...

I felt a dizziness, the room disappears and i felt like i was in a warm tunnel. Next moment i had a full sense of my body and the sense of my room. 

Notes: 1. Drumming music

Today’s meditation was very different than the previous one. No “falling” feeling, no weird places, nothing...It was more like talking with a very close friend of mine..

Started as usual and i felt in a very light trance. I was aware of my body, my conscious and where i was. I felt Paimon’s present like a vortex in my solar plexus and same time i felt a warm light surrounding me. His voice was very calm, strict when the convo came to specificated things, but not angry. 

We spoke for a lot of things, which i cant share, and it was always to the point about the things he told me. Things that i wrote them down cause i need to work on them. Things that i must fix in order to be more connected to the Divine, to improve for myself and specificated things that i must work with. Some historical facts and some questions that i had....

After a night with very very vivid dreams, i woke up and i started my meditation. Last days i started to feel my connection with my Patron getting stronger and stronger every day...

I cant say if its Paimon’s help, but the only thing i know that i have increased my time to fall into trance. I fall in trance almost immediately. I also have increased my skills to Void meditation.

 I lit his intense, chanting his Enn and i started...

Today, when the “falling” effect stopped, If felt like I was falling in a very deep, slumbering, swaying invisible energy, so peaceful and so calming. Again, i was standing at the entrance of a cave and a bright light was coming out of the cave. It became more brilliant and it stopped in front of me. I felt an intense love, which came from the Light. What is this place? Where am I? Not answer...I could sense the light. It was brilliant but caused no discomfort when looking at it. In fact, I gained strength by looking into the light.

I then sensed a presence. I felt total love from this presence. Felt like I was home...

Notes: 1) Shamanic drumming music helps sooo much.

           2) It was Paimon’s present?

Sitting in a lotus pose, listening drumming shamanic music, gaze Paimon’s sigil and chanting his Enn. The connection happens in a blink of an eye...

Felt a vortex on my Solar Plexus and next moment I was in a forest. i was able to feel Paimon’s present but i couldn't see him. I started walking around, with no certain direction in my mind. Tall trees all around me, no sounds, but it was so calm and peaceful, i wasn't felt fear, not for a moment. I stopped walking for a moment and I was about to ask “where am i?”. The answer came before i finished the question in my mind. “In the Middle Realm, keep walking” (!!!!????) 

I had my usual sense of awareness of myself, but not of my body. I was unaware of the presence of any other beings in this realm. I saw no one, and I didn’t have a feeling that there was anyone else there.

I kept walking and i notice that the thoughts that pop up in my mind became “reality”. I visualize a enter of a cave and suddenly i saw that cave in front of me. I visualize that from the inside of the cave a golden bright yellow was coming and the cave was illuminated by that golden light. I stopped in the entrance of the cave again when i heard the usual voice “not yet”....

Notes: 1 )Do i create this reality?

I did my last meditation late last night, and i woke up very early this morning. Last night experience was too intense, and as the two meditations were very close one with the other, i didn't want to push myself.

So, i did my daily morning practice in yoga, just to raise and let my energy flow and i continue with some breathing exercises. i only drown down purple light through my crown chakra and i let it pass through my whole body. 

I started my meditation practice late at night. Started as usual. I took a comfortable sit in my bed, put my headphones and i start to listen “ Michael Harner: Shamanic Journey – 30 minutes solo drumming “. 

I visualize Paimon’s sigil while same time i was chanting his Enn. Visualize my self at the edge of a cliff, night, my back was turned to the void and i let my self-fall. During the falling, i felt the usual power that i felt since i started this challenge to pull me fast.

I found myself that I was inside a GIANT room.  I could see a corner way far out, the ceiling must've been like a mile high, I mean it was a huge structure. I then looked back down and to the left and there was a path. The path led to a lower level and turned right, where I noticed a room with a golden glow inside. I walked in and then i heard a voice saying “dont take anything with you”.  As that happened the floor beneath me shattered and I fell through. It happened really fast. Felt this power again to pull me and i found myself walked on the beach, and looked out to the sea. There were huge buildings i can see in the distance, almost like a city.  Then the drums from the music that i was listening changed. It was my signal to get out.  I didn't notice 15 minutes pass, but it felt like I was there for a long time. It's hard to explain, like if time was compressed/decompressed at the same time.

Notes: 1) Drumming music works PERFECT! Credits to Graig Andrews, i took this idea from him. 

Not so much to write today. Its Sunday, i had some friends visited me, so i did my daily meditation practice early in the morning. 

Started with some breathing exercises and i continue by chanting Paimon’s Enn. I only chanting it 2 times when i felt a bright hot light surround me. I didn't do anything, i just let this light merge with my energy. I visualize that my body absorbs this light, like a pull it inside me with each inhale. I was totally focused to absorb as much as i could, so i didn't go deeper. 

Notes: 1) From my yesterday meditation, still have a weird feeling of the vibration of my body.

Last weeks i had some personal issues and i was trying to figure why all those issues happen and find a solution to all this mess. I haven't realized how much energy i spent to bs and how much this affects to my progress, who much all this held me back. Last night after a talk that i had with a person i trust and appreciate a lot, it makes me realize and see things from a different aspect. It was very relieving and i finally understood that it was me that i create the obstacles to my progress. My spiritual progress it's more important than to pay attention to such a silly issues. I finally let them go.

So, today woke up with a whole different mood. More confidence, without stress and with no worries. I decided to make my meditation by channeling Paimon and let him guide me without holding back myself. 

I started to channeling and same time i started to have the “falling” feeling. i was able to hear Paimon’s voice crystal clear to guide me. When the “falling” sense stopped i found my self standing in a front of a lake. It was very dark and i started to walk into the water. i kept walking till the water started to cover me. i didn't have the feeling that I'm drawing, i had the feeling of cleaning and banishing cause i was very calm and free from any kind of thoughts. 

As i was covered from the water i hear his voice tell me “go deeper” and i felt a power pulled me out of the water with such a speed that i felt that it's going to tear me apart. Strange, i wasn't fear at all...