#doldrum

oh yeah, i've heard this one a lot bc it's one of my best friend/roommate's favorite songs, and she plays it a lot.

i gave it another listen as a refresher and i'd say, for me, about a 7/10. really good, but not as resonate as some other heavy songs. i'm also maybe a little jaded to it from hearing it so often. if it had made me cry, i'd've given it a 10/10.

however, and...uh...cw for suicidal ideation, it IS somewhat relatable in the suicidal thoughts that Achilles in the song has, as most of my suicide attempts and suicidal ideation have also involved jumping from a great height, so i can definitely appreciate that. and, for those worried about me, i'm not suicidal anymore. i've fortunately managed that with care and support, so i'm safe!

anyway, favorite lyrics:

But be real and just jump

You dense motherfucker (you're worth more, Achilles)

You will not be more

I've had the pleasure of creating art for @aquietwritingcorner's FMA Big Bang 2021 fanfic, "Embers of Revalations"- a sequel fanfic to her previous FMA Big Bang fanfic, "Embers in a Wounded Heart". You can find her both on AO3 and ff.net as RealityBreakGirl.

Her fanfic is rich with history of Riza's past, and her choice to tell the story through Havoc is refreshing.

Summary: Tasked by Fuhrer Grumman to investigate a suspected alchemic incident, General Mustang's team finds themselves stranded in Hawkeye's hometown. Needing a place to stay, they find themselves taking shelter in her childhood home. However, her past can't stay buried there, and as revelations come to light, they also bring embers of danger with them.

You can check out her fanfic on October 3rd! Shout to fellow artist @doldrum and beta reader @teaaavis for helping bring this project together!

[ID: Riza Hawkeye, with tears in her eyes, looks at Jean Havoc, who is buttoning up her button-up shirt. In contrast, he is smiling reassuringly. There is a hand placed on Riza's back.

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