Miss Mum
Babies are our business, ladies. And business is... tough. For any of you reading this, I’m a first time mum with a 6 month old son. I was told I’d never have children when I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) at 21. This devastated me, even though, at the time I didn’t want children, how dare that choice be taken away from me. I began my weightloss journey and lost a substantial amount of weight and managed to fall pregnant.. and miscarry... twice.. Fortunately (in some horrible way), it was the best thing to have happened as I was with a dropkick of a boyfriend, who was cheating and would have been a horrible father... Now I’m 29, with my pain in the arse love of my life, Brodie and our beautiful son, Caelan. Things are tough and life keeps throwing us curve balls, but I’m honestly thankful for all the moments I have with my two buttheads. Don’t get it twisted though. I’ve had my fair share of fear, battling postpartum depression, feeling alone, overwhelmed, unworthy and completely unprepared for being a mother. There are just so many things that no matter how much information you read, programs you watch, mummy friends you ask, you’re just never going to be prepared for. I’m an overstresser, overpreparer, complete and utter control freak who needs to micromanage everything and also benefits from step by step instructions... If there was a step by step manual to life, I would probably read it and follow it with my own variations, so becoming a first time mum was the scariest moment of my life. I’ll hopefully get in the routine of writing an entry every day, but there are no promises. I just want to keep it real for the mums who have messy hair, no time for a bikini wax and battling along with weight loss and/or depression. I’m not the pretty mum who has amazing clothes, hair and has the opportunity to put on a full face of contour every morning. I’m the mum still sitting in her pjamas on the couch at 1:35pm on a Thursday arvo listening to music while trying to “sleep train” my baby for the first time. Wondering if perhaps today would be more productive if I did the dishes instead of typing. I’m trying to be the proactive mum. I’m trying to do what’s best for my family and myself. It’s time to kick butt <3
