It’s me. I’m back. I know everyone missed me. I am in the breaking out of my chrysalis part of things. I was in there for a bit. Apologies for the chrysalis related absence.
Basically it’s been about a year since my life throughly exploded. In some ways, it was no one one’s fault. In others, it was. And, it was very much thrust upon me against my will, best efforts, and dedication. And I was undeniably very very hurt in the process.
The most fair thing to say is that : I was on a path that dwindled with every step. My denial growing with each foot forward. And suddenly
That path was just no longer an option.
It took a lot of grief. And a lot of heartbreak. Betrayal. Loss. Anger. Screaming. All of it.
All of which I still feel every damn day. But it also took a lot of reckoning with how unfit my path truly was to get where I am now.
Living in what is meaningful and driving for me. Living in what’s in front and behind but most importantly— my own path.
Today is a culmination of that. So here’s to me. Here’s to all of us who had a curve ball thrown in our 9th hour, totally unprepared for a life different than what we had planned. It was not what we wanted.
But we took it and made it what we wanted.
We are braver than what people know
We are stronger than we give ourselves credit for
I would never wish it on another, but if you too find yourself unexpectedly in a place to start over, may yours be filled with love, support, growth, and may your next life be full of more.
Whatever it is you want, may yours have more.
May you know you are not ever alone. Life is not linear. And we are just in the “fun fact” “last dollar” “sleeping on a couch” part of our story.
The part people tell about moments before greatness.
We are among good company my friends. So may I share with you, my very favorite saying.
It is what I tell myself with every eyelash, toast, shooting star, and candle-
To better and brighter, my friends
