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My follower count is 269. Haha. Yeah, i know its not impressive but come on, its 269. That’s funny. It takes two people to sixty nine ;). 

Sorry about that. Anyway, does anyone else like yaoi? I mean i am a full hearted fujoshi. Like it or not that is just who i am. A good mix between beautifully drawn sex scenes of passion and real love (normally how most of them end up anyway) and interesting drama or comedy that gets you in the feels or the funny bone. I respect those who don’t agree with me and dislike anime and manga in general. In fact, majority of the people i have ever known or befriended has never known that I even watch anime and read manga (let alone i have a thing for guy on guy action). Why do I have to hide it all the time? Im embarrassed of myself and what i enjoy. 

This society is so rude about what other people do in their free time and all i can say is: what does it matter to you what I do? If I am not hurting anyone, or forcing my opinion and hobbies on them, then why does what I do bother you? Why is this world so hell bent on what the other people around the, are doing? Why can’t we all just agree to disagree and enjoy our lives the way we want without feeling judged and hurt by their opinions. 

It’s truly sad when something that has been a part of my life since i was a preteen (yeah....i know...) has had to be kept to myself for so long to the point even then people i was closest to never knew. I have allowed others to share with me thier interests when i wasn’t into it because i am polite and enjoy seeing others excited about their hobbies, so why could no one ever do that for me? If anyone reading this can look back and find a time when you didn’t know your friends were into somehthing, give them the chance to introduce you to it. Allow them to invite you into their world because it is so very important for us all to feel validated and at peace with who we are. We dont need to hide parts of ourselves to fit in or feel normal. We are all different and are given the freedom to like and do as we please. That is the gift given from the universe we live in. 

Today has been hectic. From beginning to end, myself, my parents, brother, sister, and my uncle have all been working our asses off to move my house. Stress was built up, mishaps occurred, a car had issues, some injuries were made, but you know what? In the end, tonight we get to spend the first night in our new house. And to me, that is so worth it all. Because it’s not about all of the blood sweat and tears that went into getting us moved in, its about the new memories we will be making thanks to all that work. My son will make new friends here, my dogs will enjoy racing back and forth in the enclosed back yard, I will enjoy a functional floor plan that allows for easier access to everything and the bathroom is on the same floor so i can potty train the little guy easier! I know that everyone is frustrated and tired right now but it is finally time to rest and get our bearings before tomorrows next endeavors. 

I can’t say it has been easy by any means, but there arent many chances to get out of your familiar box and get out to make a different life for yourself away from the normalcy. 

I know I missed the day so I’d like to say a belated Happy Mother’s Day to every mom out there who does it on their own like I do. To every mom who had to give up their child for the sake of his or her future. For the mothers who never got to meet their babies due to complications and the mothers who got to meet them but they never opened their eyes. And for the moms who suffered for days, months, years trying to save their child’s life just for it to end too soon. To those of you who aren’t usually appreciated enough or given the credit where credit is due. Happy Mother’s Day. You are loved. You are appreciated. You are recognized. And I am so sorry for what you have been through. Whether it be among loved ones or alone, I feel for you whole heartedly and you deserve so much more than a day of appreciation. 

Mothers of the world dont just deserve one day of recognition, we need it every single day. It doesn’t have to be mother’s day to tell your mom you love her. it doesn’t have to be mother’s day to give her flowers or give her a hug and tell her she is appreciated. Love your mother every day and make sure she knows that she has done a good job because let me tell you, it is wonderful to hear those words. It is something to keep us all going. 

When we are children you think your mom is God. She is all mighty and knows everything, does everything like a superhero, and doesn’t complain about it.But as you get older you start to see the drooping eyes, the pajamas more frequent, or the broken effect being a mother can have on a woman. Remember that she is still just a human and she gave up everything to have you and give you the best life she could with what she had. As a mother myself I can say I have given up a lot of my old lifestyle and hobbies to be a mom full time. I don’t regret it one bit nor am I complaining. But it does take a toll in the long run and you just have to realize that you are the best thing that has ever happened to them, ever. Do her a favor and just give her a hug and tell her you love her and thank her for being your mom. No one else could have done the job better. Just let her know.