#divinity work

I keep seeing posts about how Aphrodite is kind and loving to everyone and is super gentle with them, and is their “gentle” goddess. But she’s not my “gentle” goddess. 

Hygieia is my “gentle” goddess. She’s soothing, tells me I’m doing great and she’s proud no matter what, and has been quietly calling me since I was 7. (It took me 8 years but I found her eventually)

Aphrodite is a different story.

I used to be opposed to her, mainly because she’s the goddess of love and beauty and that stuff, and I was not into makeup, shopping, dating, etc.

Now I’ve since realized why I was so opposed to those things (cough parents cough) and the reasons why I was so opposed to those things is an entirely different discussion. The point is, I am no longer opposed, and Aphrodite definitely helped with that (even though I didn’t realize it at first.)

But that is all irrelevant. What happened was I was researching Hygieia (v. hard, as she is a minor goddess), and I noticed that she sometimes hangs out with Aphrodite, since health is such a big part of beauty.

I had my doubts, but I researched her, and it felt right. So I invited her into my life. And she did enter into my life.

She showed right up and started yelling. 

She made me do all my makeup, helped me do it properly, yelled at me that I’m a princess, her princess, until I believed it. She lectured me when I tried to skip brushing my teeth one night until I did it. She motivates me by yelling at me until I get shit done. 

And I appreciate it, because I have gotten a lot of shit done since she came into my life.

She tells me my scars are beautiful and I need to be proud of them. She guides me in my clothes and makeup decisions. She helped me determine my sexuality and gender. She helped me write my daily and weekly prayers and rituals (I need organization to worship consistently)

And it’s not that Hygieia hasn’t done any of that-she’s there too, she helps too. It’s just that she’s quieter, and she’s more focused on me taking care of myself than anything else. Aphrodite is more focused on everything.

And I’m not posting this to brag about the fact that goddesses speak to me regularly, I’m just posting this because I see a lot of people saying stuff like, “Aphrodite is gentle, and proud of me always!” And she’s not always proud of me, because sometimes I do stuff that’s not so great and she’s honestly so beyond awesome, because she’s not afraid of telling me that when I don’t care for myself, she can’t use me. And while I may not care about myself, I sure as hell do care about her and want to make her proud. So I care for myself so that she can use me.

Anyway, this has been a long-ass post and I am sorry.