Brain Fuzz
My brain has felt like it's been out of my body for weeks now, especially today though. I don't know how to eat or drink anything other than soda from a can. The fridge suddenly looks so empty compared to every other day. Like it's just waiting for someone to use up the last of the ingredients. I want to drink the rest of my tequila. It's been sitting there waiting for me to consume what's left, but I resist. I want a fucking cigarette, so bad. I want a good night's sleep, but I know that'll never happen. Really, today went fine in the grand scheme of things, but I just feel so empty and lost. I keep wandering around thinking something will zap my brain back in place, but it just isn't happening. I need to put my laundry away. It's been clean for days, but I just keep putting it in a big pile in the chair. On my bed. Back on the chair to sleep. Back on the bed to watch TV. It's my night to do dishes. I guess something will get done.
