Video description: Video of an Afro-Indigenous nonbinary femme during various periods of his life. Aster has light brown skin, dark brown curly hair, and a fluctuating body size. The song is set to "wildflower" by Billie Eilish.
Billie sings, "I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I? / But I see her in the back of my mind / All the time / Like a fever, like I'm burning alive / Like a sign / Did I cross the line?"
There are several clips in this video:
1) A photo of Aster leaning on his rollator in a doctor's office exam room.
2) A video of Aster doing a roundoff back-handspring a few years ago
3) A video of Aster doing an aerial landing onto a trampoline
4) In this video, Aster does a back-walkover
5) Aster does a calypso leap
6) Photo of Aster doing a standing pike stretch with straight knees - part of the Beighton score
7) Photo of Aster showing that his thumb can touch his wrist
8) Photo of Aster with his elbow outstretched to show hyperextension
9) Photo of Aster doing the splits with his head tilted back
10) 3 photos of Aster in the hospital more recently
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This month is third anniversary of when I finally realized I couldn't coach/do gymnastics anymore due to my health. Gymnastics and dance were my entire life for so long and the grieving process has been intense. I miss it so, so much. Hope to one day become involved again in some sort of capacity, but I also know that that probably isn't realistic.
