#dilllema

My dilemma:

okay so I got a new cat recently named

Solay

but I have No fricking clue how to spell that

and I really like the spelling Solae

      haiisst. I just came from a moment of short agony because I have deleted the draft I am writing which I supposedly had to post. Anyway, I have no one to blame (as if you would want me to blame myself),not even fate or any supreme being.

 Let me begin.

       In this world we call our own, I think, the hardest work to do is to think. To think of what to wear, what food to eat, where to eat, what to say, what to sing, what to write, what to blog, who to text, when to eat, when to take a bath, when to give up. when to start all over again, and when to think to stop thinking, or worse, when to to end living.

       We all have lived some years in this earth with basic grounds - culture. and what comprises it the most is our religion (later on we’ll discuss about atheism). Me as a baptized Catholic when I was still a baby, was raised acknowledging a “God”. I was taught how to pray my basic prayers: Prayers before meals, The Lord’s prayer, which I learned when I was in grade four maybe? and Later on learned further prayers, such as, Morning prayer, Prayer to my Guardian Angel, Hail Mary, Hail Holy Queen, Glory be, Fatima prayer and even how to pray the rosary. Yes, I am raised like that. I am raised a conservative person, mindful of what people thinks  about me (I suppose most of the people are like this), and expects a supreme being to guard me against the devils of this world. What I am thinking right now is, what if religion was not our basic ground? What if, we grew up as people without held beliefs? or can we ever? Yes, we can say that we cannot, but what about the philosophy of God. What if, people in the medieval ages had never ended their rationalization with a supreme being they call as the efficient cause of man, what if we continued the thought process answering the question of the ancient philosophers,”How to live?”.

    How do we live? What do we live for? Why is there a need to live? Can’t we just die? What makes life so precious? What is there into life that makes everyone so fascinated about producing medicine to live longer, even people crave to  have the “elixir of life”. There must be something about this life that makes everyone want to remain in it. Would the reason be because there is no life after, and for this, they want to live life to the fullest and oftentimes wish to never die? Is it because, the day we die, we can never be conscious at all? which is quite scary because, as I imagine the feeling of it, it would make a person feel very empty and “nothing”. The fear of nothingness after life, the thought of death is horrifying (for those who don’t believe in after life).

    What is the secret of the fearless atheist against death?  There is an open letter I have read from the internet at kidswithoutgod.com. It is about a fresh individual leaving his religion, his dilemmas (cognitive dissonance) in his rough transition (changes can never be that smooth, especially if it involves paradigm shift).

     “Dear Darrel,

           I have recently decided that I am an atheist. The problem is that I am now much more anxious about my own mortality, and the mortality of the people I care about. It is scary to suddenly feel like there isn’t a God looking out for us, and that there will just be nothing after we die. Also I can’t help being afraid that if I am wrong I will go to Hell. How should I cope with these fears?“

      This is an example of a person’s sentiment who leaves their respective religion. In Dr. Darrel Ray’s answer, he states that living and dying is natural, that is why atheists live their lives to the fullest and does good deeds to people not for some reward in after life. He further stated that,”Living life without religion means we have to cherish the time we have now with those we love. We aren’t going to see them after they die, so we need to make amends sooner, love more and live so that we have no regrets later. “

     With this bit of advice, some atheists feel relieved - which is good.In a world we call our own, we have different ways of viewing the world, we have our own details and ideas on what life is. The question today is, if we have our subjective reasons for how to live, which is which is right? is there anything such as “right”? Or these are just created by our members of the society to control chaos.

    Another question arises form another problem that has not yet been answered. Why is there a need to control chaos? Would there be a chaos if there are no set rules? if there would be, is this a simple way to say that man is naturally chaotic and fallible? and is this the reason why we continue to aid this flaw we have in our very nature with rules and guidelines? is nature bad?