#dilli rambles

a lil ramble about life as of late:

I'm starting volunteering work at a university mentoring program for nuerodivergent students! This is my first time working within the neurodivergent community and even though it's only a few hours a week and mostly admin stuff, i would really appreciate any tips or notes on working with/interacting within the community

I'm also starting training in digital crisis support with Lifeline Australia, which is a non-for-profit crisis support service. Despite my struggles, I've never reached out through crisis support, so any tips and notes from people who have/do use crisis support would be great!

I've also been offered a part-time position in the hospital where I work so I'll be working 2-3 days a week.

This is a lot of different commitments along with my studies (I'm in my second year of psychology), so I'm planning on dropping my supermarket job (no more swooning over meat shop guy TT)

The reason I'm taking on both volunteering roles is because I'm hoping to get into an interstate Honours program and later a Master's degree. While experience is not necessary for Honours (they consider mainly grades), it is half, if not more, of the consideration for Masters. If I do get into the Honours progam interstate, I will have to be spending a lot of that year working, which means little time for volunteering roles. So hopefully if I get that volunteering exposure early on, It will alleviate the pressur ein my Honours year.

All of this to say. I've accidentally taken on more commitments and academic pressure I've ever faced before, so please excuse inactivity, mental breakdowns, and any other repercussions that my blog may face.

TL;DR this girl has a lot on her plate so please cut her some slack

love y'all xx dilli

it's the first time i've ever left an assignment to be done so last minute. technically this submission is only due 3pm tomorrow (it's currently 10:28pm) but i have to wake up at 5am to go to work and don't get home til around 4.30pm, so really, i have until 5am to finish this assignment. and it's for a unit that i really want to improve my grades on (i've got a structure down, and my sources ready, just gotta write up the five pages, do the referencing and proofing)

but really i'm just a bit terrified because i had weeks, literally weeks, to get this done but i just... didn't? and i did similar things for my last two assignments too and i just--i can't afford to do this, you know? this is my dream, and i can't believe i'm sabotaging myself like this.

i was looking into scholarships for next year bc i could really use it, and i'm just 3% away from being eligible for our uni's merit-based one. and the worst part is, i feel like i could have really easily gotten it if i had put in a tiny bit more effort last year. and yet even knowing this, i can't bring myself to get on top of my game for this semester.

i've just been wanting to sleep all the time, even though i'm constantly napping. i don't even think it's a depressive episode though, because emotionally i'm not really struggling. maybe i'm mentally exhausted? but again, i feel like i've been doing nothing all semester so idk what i'm even exhausted from.

this is my final assignment submission for the year so i'm really hoping that once the stress of deadlines is over, i can actually be productive and study for exams properly (and catch up on like half a semester of missed lectures and exams for half my units)

i'm going to take a 20 minute nap, and hopefully i'll be able to get my head in the game and finish writing this up and do the referencing. i'll try do the proofing and submission at work tomorrow.

thanks to whoever read this and i'm sorry if i got you down. sending you all my best wishes with your work/study/other endeavours<333

my parents are mad.