#diensions

When I first heard people mention the Summerlands, it was described to me as a place that the soul goes to liver forever, whatever that may be.  Some people think that this is a land of eternal summer, some think it means returning to the earth before humans were around.  I've also heard that it's a non-physical reality, or that it's just a vague realm where our energy will coexist with the energies of the universe.

Whatever it ends up being for me, I'm secretly hoping that it will be a chance to relive some key times in my life while still holding all the knowledge that I have now.  I want to be able to relive my college years and not waste so much of myself on people and things that didn't matter.  I want to relive a snapshot of my life where I could have grown up in a society where gender roles were reversed, just so I could see what it would be like to be raised as a women without any of the fears and societal burdens of being one as well.  I want to see what would have happened at all these different moments if I had made a different call.

Sometimes I think that our personal time lines split at every decision we make, and therefore a new universe in a new dimension is born, continuing on with every possible result of those decisions.  But we only get to experience one.  We only get to see what becomes of the choice we are conscious to make and never see what happens to us in the dimensions where a different choice was made.

I hope the Summerlands lets me see what would have happened in all those dimensions.  I hope I get to see what every choice I could have ever made would have lead to.  I want to see all the different me's that would have resulted if I had just thought a little differently at a moment in time where it mattered.