#dice2051

first, what exactly does "2051" mean? i've seen it a lot, but i haven't been able to find out if it had any specific meaning or if it was just chosen as a symbol of diceorg because it sounded cool.

second, is does dice still exist? from what i've found, it seems to be gone or at least inactive, but i've never gotten clear information on whether it's still around, and if so, so what extent.

thanks!

Hi ! i NEVER MiND THE QUESTIONS AT ALL , NO WORRIES ! ^-^

i DO HAVE DiSSOCiATiVE AMNESiA , SO SOME OF MY MEMORiES MiGHT BE A BLUR , BUT i ALWAYS TRY TO ANSWER AS WELL AS i CAN !

FiRST : 2051 WAS MORTiSFiLiC ’ S NUMBER TAG ( i thInk those were what those thIngIes were called ? ) ON DiSCORD SiNCE THiS WAS WAY BEFORE THE TAGS WERE REMOVED . iT BECAME A SYMBOL FOR THE GROUP FOR THAT REASON ALONE , i THiNK . ( on that note , the name DiCEORG lIterally came from the name of KokIchI Oma ’ s group in Danganronpa 2 )

SECOND , i HEAR THAT THE ENTiRE SERVER HAS BEEN GONE FOR YEARS NOW ( thankfully ) ,

BUT i MAYYY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN DOOMSCROLLiNG A LOT EVER SiNCE i LEFT AND FOUND A LOT OF PEOPLE ON TiKTOK THAT MORTiS HAD BEEN QUiETLY REMAKiNG SERVERS THAT WERE MUCH LESS PUBLiC AGAiN AND iT WAS GiViNG ME SUCH BAD PARANOiA THAT i DELETED THE APP FOR GOOD . LATER — BECAUSE i CANNOT STOP DOOMSCROLLiNG FOR THE LiFE OF ME . i AM SiLLY — i FOUND OUT THAT OTHER MEMBERS WERE TALKiNG ABOUT AND PROMOTiNG NEW DiCEORG SERVERS THAT WERE APPARENTLY RUN BY THE ACTUAL MORTiS AND NOT JUST SOME FULT OR SOMETHiNG ! SiNCE LATER COMMENTS FROM SOME OF THOSE MEMBERS MENTiONED THAT THEY LEFT THE CULT EVEN WHEN THEiR GiFTS TO MORTiS ( anImatIon memes , usually ) WERE LEFT UP ON THE CHANNELS , SO THE ANXiOUS PART OF MY BRAiN iS PRONE TO BELiEViNG THAT THEY WERE BEiNG HONEST ABOUT THE FACT THAT THEY WERE iN THESE MORE PRiVATE SERVERS MORTiS MiGHT HAVE BEEN DOiNG SOMETHiNG LiKE THAT . HOPEFULLY NOT , BUT i HONESTLY WOULDN ’ T PUT SUCH A THiNG ABOVE MORTiS . ( honestly, I sorta doubt MortIs ever got better morally . that may be just my mInd beIng unfaIr , but I can never fully shake the feelIng , y ’ know ? )

SHORT ANSWER FOR THAT QUESTiON : IT TECHNiCALLY iSN ’ T PUBLiCALLY BACK UP FROM WHAT i KNOW OF HOPEFULLY NOT BUT SOMETHiNG SEEMS TO BE HAPPENiNG AND HONESTLY iT WORRiES ME BUT i AM GOiNG TO BE iN DENiAL ABOUT iT , LMAO .

I dont even know if we've ever talked, but I was in dice and was a pretty active member back in the day. Lately I've gotten an influx of memories and ive been feeling really guilty about it - especially since, because of how young I was (9-10), I was one of the people fully brainwashed into thinking MORTiS was a god, I did everything they said or wanted people to do. I still had a few of the scars they made me do up 1-2 years ago when they fully faded. Hell, sometimes I wonder where they are or even miss them - which i know is a trauma response. I talked to them alot tho untill everything blew up and never really got closure.

Ive never looked online for other ex members untill today and now i guess im reaching out to maybe reconnect with friends i had at the time (which idk if thats possible since idk my user or remember alot from that time), or just finally process everything by talking to people who went through what I did.

Sorry for the bother.

iT ’ S OK , ANON ! i ’ M ALWAYS HERE TO TALK ABT THESE SORTS OF THiNGS AND i NEVER MiND AT ALL ! < 3

i GOT iN AROUND THE SAME AGE ( I got InvIted vIa somebody on Wattpad who was also In the Undertale communIty ) SO i GET iT . THAT WHOLE THiNG GAVE ME WEiRD PSEUDORELiGiOUS PSYCHOSiS THAT SEEPS iNTO EVERYTHiNG IN MY LiFE STiLL . i STiLL KiNDA MiSS THEM , TOO , FOR WHATEVER THAT iS WORTH.

i ALSO BLOCKED OUT A LOT OF MY MEMORiES , SO i ALSO HAVE VERYYYY SCARCE MEMORiES ABOUT THiS . i AM NOT ENTiRELY CERTAiN iF i AM RECiTiNG MY INFORMATiON CORRECTLY , BUT i THiNK MY NAMES BACK THEN MiGHT HAVE BEEN ALEX , PLAGUE , DOCTOR , OR SOMETHiNG ELSE . . . i CANNOT REMEMBER WHAT MY USERNAME MiGHT HAVE BEEN , BUT SOMETHiNG ALONG THOSE LiNES , MAYBE .

You dont have to answer if you dont want to but i get why if you dont

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DON ' T WORRY , ANON ! i ' M HERE TO BE OPEN , iT HELPS ME OUT A BiT , ALL THiNGS CONSiDERED !

MY MEMORiES ARE ALWAYS SOMEWHAT FADED iN REGARDS TO THESE SORTS OF THiNGS SiNCE i WAS VERYYYY LiTTLE AND HAVE A LOT OF MENTAL STUFF THAT BLOCKS OUT MOST THiNGS , AND i ' M NOT SURE WHAT COUNTS AS A MEMBER . . .

THERE WERE VERiFiED CHANNELS AND A SORT OF NONVERiFiED WAiTiNG ROOM , AND WiTH THE POPULARiTY THAT DiCEORG GAiNED , PEOPLE WERE JOiNiNG LEFT AND RiGHT FOR THE SAKE OF MORBiD CURiOSiTY , SO THE AMOUNT OF CONSiSTENT MEMBERS iS KiND OF MESSY !

iF i HAD TO GiVE AN ESTiMATE AS TO HOW MANY MEMBERS THERE WOULD BE AT ANY GiVEN TiME , JUST A COUPLE OF HUNDREDS ! NOT MORE THAN 500 AT A TiME , i DON ' T THiNK , BUT iT WOULDN ' T SURPRiSE ME iF THERE WERE A LOT MORE . i ALSO HEARD ON TiKTOK ( BEFORE i DELETED iT OUT OF PARANOiA ) THAT MORTiS / ViL MiGHT HAVE BEEN BACK ONLiNE AND MAKiNG MORE SERVERS iN PRiVATE , A FEAR WHiCH HAS ALSO BEEN AMPLiFiED BY SOME PEOPLE i ' VE SEEN ON YOUTUBE WHO . . . APPARENTLY ARE iN NEW DiCE SERVERS RUN SPECiFiCALLY BY MORTiS WiTH MORE SELECTiVE MEMBER ACCEPTANCE ? i CANNOT ACTUALLY CONFiRM THAT BECAUSE , AGAiN , THE LiNKS ARE RARELY GiVEN ON YOUTUBE AND EVERYTHiNG i HEARD iS BASiCALLY JUST SPECULATiON OR VERY VAGUE MEMORiES OR CLAiMS BY PEOPLE ON TiKTOK BUT i SUPPOSE THEY WOULD BE iNCLUDED iN THE OFFiCiAL MEMBER COUNT ?

i GET iT , ANON ♡ THAT WAS SUCH A MiSERABLE EXPERiENCE AND MAKiNG THiS BLOG AND ACTUALLY FiNDiNG OTHER SURViVORS FELT LiKE A BURDEN BEiNG LiFTED . WiTH OUR HiSTORiES , iT CAN SOMETiMES FEEL LiKE THERE iS NOBODY OUT THERE WHO WiLL EVER BE ABLE TO CONNECT , WHiCH iS WHY i AM SO VERY GLAD THAT YOU CAN FiND FAMiLiARiTY WiTH OTHER SURViVORS !