Things I notice I struggle with:
1. Cooking for myself and others.
* lots of noises and uncomfortable textures and smells.
* I struggle to estimate portions; I either make too much or too little.
* I can not tell how many ingredients are in something visually. This is apparently not normal; and you’re not meant to rely solely on instructions.
* Cooking without any instructions, exact times, ingredients, and measurements, makes no sense to me.
* I am physically unable to do most cooking if anyone is in the room. I get flustered, overwhelmed, my heart pounds, and i feel dizzy. It’s also just incredibly annoying and nerve wracking. But you can’t say that because they will think you are rude and hate them.
* I can not taste nor identify individual ingredients of something, most of the time. When I do, it’s extremely overwhelming, and makes me way too aware of my mouth. It makes me nauseas. I enjoy plain food.
* It is not normal to enjoy plain food. They will be upset if you give it to them, even if they don’t say anything.
* They will also get irritated if you don’t already know that they dislike plain food; ask what they like and research how to make it that way.
* Too, too much. It takes so much energy. Once it’s finished, I need time alone, I eat silently. But, sometimes I may sit down and cry. It’s triggered a panic attack a few times, but I can’t control that regardless.
