#diary 2020

It’s tough, dating. Being single for 4 years because I just wasn’t available emotionally and physically to be in a good place to date, but then again when is a good time to date? 🤷🏼‍♂️

Things happen, the world never stops, we don’t stop. I guess if you want it to work in the midst of all that’s happen, you gonna work for it. Like really think it through and give it a go. I think I am ready, but is she?

I know I say to myself never to date someone younger than me, coz I like a girl that knows what they want. And I want someone who’s at least thought about their life. Not into fancy luxuries, but just genuine simple happiness. (I know I should generalise that younger girls are like that, but I’ve had some real bad experience🤦🏼‍♂️). I don’t like wishy washy. And sometimes I’ve had enough to be the default of the one taking the actions, just because I am more boyish, girls I’ve dated expected me to take the action and effort all the time. Why date a girl when u still expect to work within the gender stereotypes?! Like wtf.

DAY 251: Allergic reaction

September 7, 2020 – Monday.

Allergic reaction won’t leave me this time of the night again and all I can see all over my body are red spots. It is also itchy, I don’t know what was happening. I can’t sleep. I really can’t sleep. Somehow this thing came just before I went into my bed and as soon as I was falling asleep, it came just in time. I am very much irritated now.

My whole body is…

DAY 248: RANDOM BRUISES

September 4, 2020 – Friday.

Another weekday ended! Can’t believe that a week of September is coming to an end, time really flew by so fast. The next thing we’ll realize it is already the end of the month again and October is here.

Even though it is already the end of the week, I feel like I really haven’t finished anything. Haven’t been really productive this past days and feeling like in…

DAY 246: THE CONVERSATION

September 2, 2020 – Wednesday.

Feeling a little bit underwhelmed about how my day went today. Not much of a productive day to be honest but did still tried to make the most of my day. Since I slept around 1 in the morning last night, I wasn’t able to get enough sleep and since I also woke up earlier today around 5 in the morning for my morning jog, I felt tired around 10 in the morning so…

DAY 132: No motivation and duo-playing in Mobile Legends

May 11, 2020 – Monday.

Quarantine day XX.

I was so tired even though I didn’t do anything, in particular, this day. I was getting back on playing video games again and losing track of time.

It is officially a week full of lack of motivation and a lot of procrastination type of a week. I really hate this time of the month where my hormones are just dropping and sometimes, at its high. That I…